Heal Me 41

Sorry.
is all I have to say.
Posting another soon Enshallah and when i say soon i mean it this time :p
Enjoy 

What! LAAA YA3NY JAD HL ASHYA2 ELY TE6LA3 MNA FAJ2A TA9DEMNY ::

Fa allah esalmkom sawayt rou7y mtan7a o chny masema3t.

Me: Ha?

Dhari: salamtich

Me: mmm ok

I figured Dhari’s was thinking about our future and not actually into the Tv since it was Sesame Street -.-

We stayed there physically watching with the kids but mentally deep in our thoughts.  I do love Dhari, and I know he loves me too but it seems that he doesn’t know how to show me that.

Today he loves me, tomorrow

 He doesn’t care, tonight I'm

Special, next week I’m nothing

This was exactly how I felt, I don't know what to expect, when and why. I'm confused.

Suddenly the kids started screaming and running around this is what brought me back to reality, I looked up at Dhari who still had is arms around me. His head was tilted backwards.

Ambaih 7abeeby te3ab wohwa efaker bl mostaqbal el shayiq 

I stood on the couch slowly and held his arm so it doesn’t fall and wake him up, I looked down and he was sound asleeeep.

I sat back down placed my hand on his chest and started repeating his name

Me: Dhari Dhari Dhari Dhari

I kept repeating and looked down at my thighs…

Dhari: bas bas bas shno bal3a radio!

Me: eee goum! *I said as I smiled *

haw shfeeh hatha shsawayt :/

He got up to stretch and walked to the room he sat on the side on the bed and he kids in the middle playing with their Ipad, punching hard on that screen.

I stood in the doorway for a bit then walked to my room to get my pj’s and I decided to sleep in the room with the cribs and tell Dhari to sleep in my room I just didn’t feel like sharing a bet, especially after the nightmare and how embarrassing it was. Plus I admit it is inappropriate :)

You see I am a person that cares about culture, religious beliefs, values and all even though I’ve lived far away from the country doesn’t mean my mom never taught me what was right from wrong. Not to mention I’ve kept that clean and I don't want to ruin it right now.

I came back into the room holding my pj’s and they were all the same way I left them!

Me: *in a quite tone * Mmm Dhari troo7 etnam eb dary?

Enshallah ma yes2al why!

Dhari: ok.

Ok qathny you know how sometimes people answer you coldly and you just want to walk over to them and punch them haardd in the face! That was just how I felt right there! And I kindof wanted him to ask why (covers face with a blanket)

I decided to let it go show him that I didn’t care, I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me but he’s being annoying right?

While I was still standing in the doorway he walked past me, shoulders hit mine and walked to my room ;O

Dhari: tara Aziz o Noura you9lon 3gb bacher belail

Me: adry

I didn’t know but I just wanted to shut him up I guess :D

….

Finally it was time to sleep I changed the kidss into their gap pj’s they’re the cutest ever! I LOVE THEM.

I covered them with their quilts

Gave them their milk

Told 2 bedtime stories one in English the other in Arabic

Tried ignoring them

Acted as if I was asleep

And they wouldn’t sleep!

They would ask about Dhari, and that they want him to put them to bed :)

Well guess what no uncle Dhari in bed tonight, I shouted at them and made them lay down forcefully then they started crying and said between sobbs ‘mahebich’ ‘abe amy Dharii’ .

Ok so I'm the aunt here kids you know that man is a stranger you’re not related to him… okay I'm jealous.

So I got up left them there, walked to where Dhari was sleeping barged into the room and said

Me: switch rooms

I walked to the side that was less occupied and I could see that he was looking at me like ‘what has got into that brat’.

But seriously I couldn’t careless

Dhari walked out leaving the door open; I shut my eyelids and had my phone in my hands.

I thought

and thought…

and thought…

and thought…

and thought…

and thought…

and thought.

About that one person of course no one else.

I felt my phone being pulled out on my hand and the bed mattress wasn’t straight like it usually is…guess what?

Dhari sat on my side so close to my tummy. I opened my eyes slowly to see him right there exactly how I’d pictured him a seconds ago.

Dhari: shfeech?

I know it's short bas i didnt mention before 3ashan mat7esoun :D

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