Walk Me With You

Why am I taking so long?

2012-02-11T04:36:00.000-08:00

I've written this long post for you guys and started righting the one after it, then when i came back home two days ago looking for my flash memory i couldn't find it anywhere in my room ):

-Madliar

Heal Me 35

2012-01-29T14:40:00.000-08:00

Improvement is all i can say that im posting two posts in two weeks time :D

heheheh there you go guys ;)

this one goes out to 4 Ketakeet emfarzineen because im going to buy chicks tomorrow :D

Professor: Lucky one

I took the last seat, plugged in my charger, and waited for class to start. As he started I listened carefully to my professor lecture and started taking endless notes. After 90 minutes class was finally over!

I walked out of class, grabbed my belongings and dumped them in my bag. Next thing I saw was Dhary right in front of class, standing there, waiting for me. His smile so innocent and that gaze I cant not smile when I see!

Me: heyy

Dhary: halaa …shloona el class

Me: as usual notes ege9on el eed :D

Dhary: 3ayal dam chethy yallah emshay a6al3ich

Me: hahaha ambaih 7asayt nafsy yahel

We started walking through the hallway and out to the car as we chatted about what is needed when they arrive.

Suddenly Dhary said….

Dhary: bs eyoun Aziz o mrta I'm moving out bag3ad eb sheqety

Me: la bs shloon …

Dhary: don't worry it’s getting cleaned ;)

Me: mmm ok

We finally got to the car and we’d decided to go to a mall then to Baby ‘r us and Target!

At Baby ‘r us we went to the cribs section to choose any 2 for the F’s, while I was in the process of picking out one and taking Dhary’s opinion his phone rang. He motioned for me to wait and that he’ll be back. However, his voice was loud and I could hear him from between the shelves, when he was on his way back to where I was I heard...

Dhary: ana gayelkom mabeeha ya5y dawrolaha ghairy ana shako abtelesh feeha!... ya5y ma7ebha !! 5alaa9!...yah qa9eb el zawaj…malkom shghl ana 7a6ha b3youni wain betroo7 ballah?… et6eeer? mathalan....5ala9 ana la3at chbdy mnkom yala fman allah….

Dhary: staghefrallah el 3a’9eem

…there I go trying to change the subject and acting as if I heard nothing

Me: shglt ayhe a7la

Dhary: e5thay ely e3ajbich saroon klha frash yahel

OK! I was just asking for your opinion moran! Ana lawareek el7in kl hatha you take it all out on me huh? Ok hayen bnshoof ely be3amlik zain hal ayam … asshole!

I called a staff member and got two of the same white classic cribs and the same white highchairs, two staff members are going to come tomorrow to put them up for us!

Lastly, we went to Target and got baby food and essentials for the kitchen.

The ride back home was silent, awkward and all; you can say. As we parked in our garage spot. I got down, and opened the trunk to carry something at least, I pulled one of the highchairs to carry with my left hand the other with my right to see him complaining…

Dhary: latshelin 5aleh ana ardlihom el7in

I ignored and walked to the elevator placed the boxes by the wall and went back again to help carry the rest. I carried some bags and Dhary was standing there by the trunk staring like what’s wrong with her? That’s what I want right? For him to apologize…

Da5alt kl el ashya2 bl elevator clicked for it to go up then I’d take all the stuff out o b6agag kaifa Dhary (:

The next day was boring like always, I went to uni attended my morning class then left to go wait for the staff to come fix the cribs for me. I went back to the apartment to find Dhary still asleep. I woke him up because one of the cribs is going to be in the there.

Dhary: meta byoun?

Me: madry

I answered without bothering to look him in the eye or actually looking at him. He grabbed something from the fridge and left, I didn’t see him after that … I arranged the cribs and put them into place, and placed the foods in their places; i.e fridge, cupboard, store…

That was how I ended my day… the next few days I wouldn’t see Dhary at all, except he’d come just before bed time pick some of his stuff and leave, still without communicating at all. I’ve gone shopping for the kids and got identical clothing for them out of boredom…

The apartment was spotless, everything was ready for Aziz, Noura and the kids, and I couldn’t wait till tomorrow

Finally at about 12 pm that day my phone rang and surprisingly it was Dhary calling…

Me: hmm

Dhary: Sara?

Me: hala?

Dhary: you9lon bacher at 4pm

Me: ee adry

Dhary: bayech esa3a wa7da bacher 3ashan nro7

Me: okay…

*silence *

Me: mm mashkour Dhary matga9er

Dhary: 7ayach 3ady shda3wa… shetsaween?

Me: sitting… bl 9ala… alone

Dhary: ya3ny ta3aaal tara ana ga3da bro7y :p

ya 7lw ely e7awel ethaye3 e9aglaa we’9a7ikny

Me: hahha shako -.- enta tfham klshay bl magloub mo mshkilty!!

Dhary: el7in 9rt ana el magloub?

Me: eeh!

Chna ba6aye7 el 7a6ab :\

Dhary: yallah fcheely el bab

Me: mamdaaak

Dhary: fecheeh agolich

Me: okk bbye

Dhary: *he hung up *

I opened the door to see him holding his phone and smiling that smile I cant resist! He is killing me slowly with his stares and the fact that he isn’t doing anything! Ughhh

He walked past me and patted my head… ok Dhary? Do I look like a dog to you? you don't pat humans heads mister!

I locked the door and joined him on the sofa for the next 3 hours, then I started falling asleep and I don't realize that I’ve slept on his warm chest till he woke me up and placed his left hand under my knee and the other behind my back and carried me to my room.

He placed me on my bed and bent down so that he was on the same level as my head

Dhary: yala ana mashe saroon ashofich bacher ok?

I don't know what got into me and made me say this…

Me: please stay Dhary

Dhary: la hdoumy hnak magdar

Me: 3endi some of Hamad’s clothes in the far end of my closet choose one for now w bacher elbs something else …please eg3ad

Dhary: mmm 7aathir mn 3yony hathy * points at left eye* gabl hathy *points at the right eye *

Ok. This was adorable!

He walked to the closet and found the boxer, then went to the bathroom to change, 5 mins later he slid beside me in bed. It felt so safe being in his arms, I turned to face him and smiled as I shut my eyes and slept.

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Heal Me 34

2012-01-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

I know 6awalt 3alaikom 7ail so sorry:(

going to reply on everyone's comments right now :*

Finals, Mid-terms you name it...

contact me: walkmewithyou@hotmail.com

most importantly enjoy <3

I saved my essay, attached it to a new email page and sent it to my professor.

Then I sat there staring at the laptop screen blankly, thinking what to do now? Sleep? Study for my quiz? Or sleep?

OKAY sleep it is!

I closed the laptop’s screen and laid back on the sofa, pulled out the living room’s quilt and slept peacefully! I woke up to a VERY loud knock on the door that scared the HELL out of me!!!

I was so scared that I grabbed my phone quickly, ran to my room looking back every time checking if that FREEKY person broke the door or not yet! I locked my room door as fast as I could and held my phone and saw that I had 12 missed calls from DHARY!

I hit the green button to call him and said after the second ring when he picked up!

Me: DHARY SAKRAAAN 3ND EL BAAB! E6G 7AAAIIILLL SHASAWY! (and I started crying)

Dhary: LAAA LAAA !!

Me: Em-baa-laah pl-ea-se ta-3aal!

Dhary: ya 7ilwa, fchay el bab hatha ana

Me:…

Dhary: sarona?

Me: hmmm…9ij? Hatha enta? STOP KNOCKING ma a9adgik lazm we check awal gabl ma afchlik el bab!

Dhary: ok yalah ana babase6 bara

I unlocked the door and heard that something had it's weight against the door, I walked to the apartment door and stood there…

Me: put your phone on the floor (I said as I hung up)

Then I pinged him on Bbm and that was when I heard his phone buzz on the floor!

I quickly unlocked the door and swung it open!

Dhary: please don’t leave the key in the key hole, hang it on the hook 3ashan mayen3ad hal maw8if :p

Me: opss :( sorrryyy

Dhary: 3ady! 5ara3teeny 3alaich

He said as he got up and walked over towards me.

Dhary: sh-haal dmou3! Afaaa ! t5afin mny!

Me: I thought you were someone else *trying to talk in between sobs *

Dhary: *sigh * lat5afeen sarona I'm here

He said as he pulled me into a hug! Then he picked me up so that my feet no longer touched the floor and walked in and locked the door after him. It felt so warm and safe being that close to him, I just didn’t want him to put me back down and let go of this tight but comforting hug! Sadly, not everything you wish for happens and lasts. So he let go after locking the door and put his arm over my shoulder and we both walked to the sofas.

And so he changed the subject to avoid what might have came next.

Dhary: ana gltt akeed nayma! 7alaya el kesha (he said as he flung strands of my hair)

Me: 7araam 3alaik ana mo kesha! ):

I said quickly and started patting my hair from both sides to let those strands fall back.

Dhary: maynona? (he said as he held both my hands)

Me: 3ashan enamoun el yananwa

Dhary: haha chethy tnawmeenhom? Zain ma 6ayartay m5ich (he said as he let go and messed my hair) Ya7elo el kesheeeeeshh!

Me: hhaaaay

Dhary: ya5y 3ajebny kaify may9eer ya3jebny?

I stayed quite and as soon as I felt my cheek turning red, I placed both hands over my face and covered it! Next thing I felt was his hands over mine and he held them from my wrist. Suddenly he pulled my hands apart and said…

Dhary: Tiyaaa !

And we both burst into laughter!

Dhary: ya3ny lazm nl3ab weyach nafs faros o feda :p

Me: ee aghaar mnhom

Dhary: 5ala9 wala ehemich my attention kila 7agich ba3ad shtabin!

Me: hahaha

Dhary: 3ala 6aree faroos o feda, aziz kalamny elyoum o chena byona in about 10 days ;)

Me: REALLY :O? o mama?

Dhary: galy betroo7 UK o ohma qareraw eyon hnee

Me: bas shlon troo7 alone

Dhary: laa bero7on weyaha mrt 3amech o bnat-ha

Me: ohh okay coool…

Ok I really miss the United Kingdom some friends, and well home. I’m pretty sure mom is taking them to our house, and well she didn’t tell me which isn’t fair at all. I thought about it but then bribed myself till I finally forgot about it well not completely.

We sat on the sofas and watched TV for a while then I started falling asleep and suddenly waking up after 3 attempts of my head-tilting front, back and sideways.

Dhary: yala tnameen?

Me: ee ta3bana

And that was it; we both went in our different directions and slept

I woke up the next morning at 9:59am realizing that I have class in 30 mins and I had forgotten to set that alarm!

Me: SHIT la2 la2 klsh mo nag9a at-haza2

I quickly ran to the toilet taking off my Pj’s in the process… trying to act like multitask-ers. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, and washed to pray.

I Prayed then wore a pair of light jeggings, a t-shirt and my pair of classic brown uggs. Then I rushed to Dhary’s and pulled out his Arizona Navy blue pullover and rushed back out!

Dhary: WAIN? (he shouted from his room)

Me: CLASS IN 10 SEE YOU LATER! (and I shouted back)

I grabbed one of my plastic ‘Harrods’ bags and dropped my cardholder, phone, charger, Ipad, Ipods, flash drive, and Uni. papers/Notebook!

Me: BA5TH EL SAYARA!

I said as I took the keys from the hook and ran down the stairs fast, luckily no one saw that I was inches from slipping and tumbling down those stairs! I got into the car and zoomed to university. I parked in the closest parking spot and walked to class seeing that I had 3 mins!

As I walked past Kuwaiti guys who of course didn’t take their eyes off of me since I'm the only Kuwaiti girl on campus and one of 7 middle easterners. I gave them no attention at all and walked directly to class and THANK god I was just in time…

Professor: Sarah Al ……

I answered to my name as in entered class

Me: Present! (I shut my eyes for a second hoping that he’d let this one go)

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Heal Me 33

2011-12-07T14:22:00.000-08:00

Finally 9a7 ?

so sorry i've been too busy :( i'll be posting another one shortly :* i promise

This goes out to my silent reader R <3

Enjoy xx

This all because I texted Noura last night asking which medicine I should use for high fevers.

I called mom and after the second ring she picked up!

Me: hala yuma shlooonich… ana bkhair el7mdellah entaw shloonkom?... la mama mafeena shay bs rtaf3at 7ararat Dhary ams o glt as2alha yemkin feeh 6areeeqa thanya… la el7mdellah 9ar a7san… yallah kany ashaghil Skype wakalimkom video call

I got out of Dhary’s bed and walked to the living room to Skype with my family back home, I got Dhary’s laptop and opened the screen but sadly I had to enter a password.

I typed his name but no…used his initials…his full name and lastly I used my own name(I was messing around!) nothing worked so I waited.

I switched ON the Tv to CNN news and started day dreamed while sipping a cup of orange juice, I didn’t realize that Dhary had finished showering. He startled me by throwing himself on the couch, wearing his yellow shorts, white underwear top and tips of his hair were still wet!

Dhary: shfeeech sar7ana?

Me: an6erik!(I grabbed the laptop again) I want the password please

Dhary: Enter (galy bqemat el boroud)

Me: ayyshaaaay wana 3abaly shay o an6rik t5ale9!! chena gabl kan shay?

Dhary: 9a3eb 9a7? la ghayarta ;p

Me: eee mashallah (I said as I punched his shoulder)

I clicked on Skype to sign out of Dhary’s account and because I just cant not read his contact list I read ‘Dhai’ and one other girly name, the rest were boys.

I turned to face Dhary

Me: basawy sign out okay?

Dhary was so into those morning political news that never caught my attention.

And before he could answer my question someone was calling!

We both turned to the flashing screen that read ‘Dhai Calling…’

*Tring Tring*

I looked at him and the next thing I know Dhary had already accepted the call.

Dhary: Dhayoo ?

Dhai: shda3wa mates2al 3any wala tgol waihna e5ty mnzman 3anha

Dhary: ams mkalmich

Omg degarha jedamy ambaih maskeena, and that was when I found out that Dhary had a sister! Ok enshallah el e5t meta nawya tseda la2ana maby an6er zyada.

5 mins later

Dhary: Dhaio ana ba6la3 tabeen shay ?

Dhai: ee agolik bbm mo shay ‘9aroory

Ee ashwa 3abaly ba3ad…

Dhary: yalah bye

Dhai: bye

He ended the call o rad endemaj bl a5bar

Btw that voice call was made while Dhary’s laptop was on my lap the whole time.

Dhary: yala sign in

I signed in and waited for my online contacts to show up and video called Aziz straight away.

Mom: Sarooona

Me: hala mama shloonkom (I smiled as I saw her face)

Mom: zaineen entaw shlonkom wain Dhary?

Me: kahwa yamy (I tilted the laptop so she could see him)

Dhary: khalty shloonich shakhbarich? Shlona bos3ayed wel yahal

Mom: shno bos3ayed ana wlaidy bo fares !

Dhary: obb ana asef ghela6t ;p

Mom: ee hatha el 7afeed deerbalik

I started laughing at how my mom quickly reacted to what he said o kaleta bgshora maskeen.

Dhary turned the laptop again and pinched me!

Me: AAAYY LAISH LAISH

Mom: haw yuma shfeech t9ar5een

Me: la mama mako shay bs engera9t tawa (I lied as I pinched him back and scooted to end of the sofa) mama wain el yahal ashof hdoo2 3endich

Mom: ee yuma ra7aw ezoron yadat-hom bs 3aziz hnee esalm 3laikom

Dhary&I: allah esalma

We chatted with my mom for nearly an hour then Aziz came and took over and started joking around… it was kind of weird because he isn’t that type he’s that serious straight person that takes everything so seriously.

When they said their goodbye’s to go to bed I started flipping through the channels looking for a movie while Dhary changed into something else since he has lots of things to do.

Me: chayakt your emails enta for uni.?

Dhary: la bs wa7ed mn el shabab mchayk ana weyah same classes egool ma3endena shay

Me: a7s bachayek wan9edim especially that ana I'm skipping wayed these days

Dhary: do them now 3ala ma arja3 yamdeech

He left and two minutes later my phone buzzed and I saw that Dhary has PING!!!-ed me

Dhary Al

PING!!!

Gflay el bab laybogich John!

Sara Al

A9lan ohwa e7ebny maybogny :p

Ok so you’re all wondering who’s that John person! He lives downstairs and I don’t know why he freaks me out, he looks so lonely and scary sometimes that I want run oh and one day me and him were in the elevator ALONE! He’s freaky but thank god he moved to another building so every once in a while Dhary starts making fun of me and I guess Hamad told him about John because I'm 100% sure I didn’t.

Dhary Al

Ee khair enshallah… lock it

Sara Al

Haha ok

As I signed in to read my emails I saw that I had two online assignments that I missed, one essay, a research paper and a make up quiz I skipped last week! I felt that pressure that had no solution but getting help from others!

I decided to call Noodie for help!

Calling Noodie

Me: Noodie :( (I said in a really sad tone I knw 7ady 7mara but I’d really appreciate it!)

Alanoud: whats wrong? IS IT THAT ASS DHARY what did he do wallah I’ll kill for you if you want!

Me: LAAAAA don't

Alanoud: YESSS ! now I know you guys are both so INLOVE (she started using those sexy tones to piss me off)

Me: kalba :$ wallah nothing happened !

Alanoud: like I'm going with what you tell me baby I know what’s INSIDE

Me: yuma mnich ;p 7asha mo ademeya

Alanoud: haha you never told me what’s wrong you know!

Me: did you ever give me a chance! Anyways so I missed lots of classes and I thought maybe you can help in some assignments

Alanoud: shoot!

I told her about them and we divided the work! She knows my username and pass from university so she’s doing those online assignments and the research paper! I will write the essay since I really enjoy writing them. Of course I turn into the other Sara who inspires her professor by writing what he wants on my paper. The quiz I’ll study for since it’s only part of chapter from my Marketing class.

I started writing and making up stuff that I never thought of writing before, till the clock hit 7.

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Heal Me 32

2011-11-12T01:17:00.000-08:00

3eedkom Mbaraak !

I took so long to post this but I have another one coming in a few days :D

Email me:

walkmewithyou@hotmail.com

Enjoy :*

Dhary picked me up and drove us back to the apartment. He looked really tired and exhausted.

As soon as we entered the apartment Dhary walked to his room and said.

Dhary: ana banam

Me: bs it's too early

Dhary: ta3ban o daye5 3al a5er

Me: oh ok t9ba7 3ala 5air

I waited for a reply but all I heard was a door slam, I stood there for a second and right there I knew that he’s not ok.

I changed into my PJ’s and sat on my bed thinking and I couldn’t sleep so I thought of going to his room to check on him again.

Me: Dhary * knock knock*

He didn’t reply so I went in. He was in deep sleep, I walked over to his bed and saw that he’s wearing that same shirt he wore today and his shorts! The only thing he took off was his socks and shoes.

I was nervous I had no idea what to do. He's sleeping. Should I call a doctor?

I placed my hands on his forehead and sensed that his skin was burnin’ so I shook him to wake up…

Me: Dhary goum enta maree’9 lazm enazl 7arartik

Dhary: mmm please 5aleeny anam ana ta3ban

Me: la mu zain goum sit up please and let me help you take off your shirt

Like a kid I made him raise both his arms so I can pull off his shirt. I threw his shirt in the laundry basket and told him to wait in bed while I get him medicine.

Oh! And if you guys are wondering btw he’s wearing underwear *wink wink * he’s not shirtless =D

I walked out and went straight to the kitchen got a big bowl and filled it with water and ice cubes, then I got two hand towels.

All I'm doing is what I learned from my mom over the years. When I get a fever, she would place wet cold towels on my skin to bring my temperature down.

I placed them in a tray and walked to Dhary’s room, then placed the tray on the bedside table.

He looked really tired. It got me worried.

I quickly walked out and got some Advil from the bathroom cupboard and a bottle of water.

When I entered the room again I saw that he’d fallen asleep but still in his sitting position the way I left him.

I placed them on the table and sat by his side looking at him, he looked so weak. As I daydreamed he opened his eyes and placed his hands on mine which brought me back to reality.

Me: sorry (my cheeks turned red)

Dhary: my insane nurse is sexy

Me: 7atan when you’re sick you flirt? And I'm not insane

Dhary: mafeeny shay

Me: enta mu 9a7y, yala lie down kamadat

He lied down straight on his bed and I started soaking the small towel in the cold water and placed each on his forehead in turns.

He started shaking his head not liking what I was doing.

Dhary: lazm ya3ny? (he shook he head trying to move the towels)

Me: la Dhary pleaase don't move the towel. 7arartk wayd metraf3a

Dhary: mafeni shay saroona (he whispered in a sleepy voice) bs khaleni anam shway

Me: I can't leave you like this.

The towel that was in his forehead was now warm. I took it and soaked it back into the cold water and used the other one.

Me: enzain here you go, I brought you some Advil.

He slowly sat up.

I gave him the pills and then the water to help him swallow them.

Dhary: thank you saroona. La t7ateen I'm fine

Me: akhaleek etnaam, enta kalayt shay?

Dhary: la mu msht'hy 7beebty

Did he just call me 7abeebty? Waay eyanin, even when he's sick, he's cute.

I'm not really leaving him. I'm gonna stay up all night if that's what it takes. He tried shutting his eyes and just before he shut them completely he said…

Dhary: namay

Me: enta nam malik shghl feeni

Next thing I know I had my own arm on Dhary’s far waist and my head resting on his bump of a tummy and my feet were still on the floor.

That was how that day ended

When I woke up that morning I found myself on his bed and he was on my left already wide-awake staring at me. When I realized that it was me he’s staring at I covered my face with the covers and turned the other way giving him my back.

I started thinking ambaih when did I sleep in his bed? How did I get under the covers?

Dhary: Haaah! Sh-hal ‘3ash ana na6rech tgomin akher shay ten5ashain?

Me: eeh! I have a quick question

Dhary: ask

Me: how did I get under YOUR covers?

Dhary: I saw u sleeping rasich 3ala karshy, eedich 3ala khi9ry. El nouma klsh ma kanat muree7a fa shltich, 7a6aytich 3ala lefrash o la7aftich o bas :D

Me: bs?

Dhary: eeee now show me that angelic face?

Me: and for how long were you staring? (still holding the covers over my head)

Dhary: madry bs n6art wayed yala 3aad (e7awl yaksr 5a6ry)

Me: fine

I said as I turned back to face him

Dhary: karshy muree7? :p (he teased)

Me: taby e9ij? Mathker!

Dhary: 3ayaraaa ela tathkerin 3adil bs matabin te3tarfain ena 3ajbich

Me: in your sweet dreams :p enta 6ebt?

I placed my hand on his forehead to check his temperature gladly it was better than ams!

Me: wayed a7san mn ams :D

Dhary: ana mu gtlich ma feeni shay

Me: embala feek shay so 3ashan matred el 7arara rou7 tesaba7 please oh and give me my phone I think hnak (I pointed at the other bedside table by his side)

He stretched his arm and got hold of my phone and gave it to me.

Me: thankyou!

He got up winked and made his way to the toilet.

I checked my phone and saw that I had missed calls from my mom, Aziz, and Noura.

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Heal Me 31

2011-10-07T13:56:00.000-07:00

Tiring weeks, sorry I'm so messed up but i'll try posting sooner :* promise!

There you go enjoy :D i dedicate this to R (3arfa nafsich yal yeniya yananteeny :p) hahahahaha

Dhary: yallah?
Me: yallaa (I smiled as I walked out of the apartment waiting for Dhary to lock it)
Dhary: shtan6erin chan 6ageetay el a9an9air,
Me: ma 6ageta la2ana lazm nrawe7 shway mn karshik el 3ajeeb (I said as I poked his tummy)
Dhary: haaa haaa shway shway 3al baby
And we both burst out into laughter!
Me: wallah '9a7aaktnyy! Baby Haa! .... EL MOHIM yala daray jdamy
Dhary: klyoum? Wela bs elyoum? (he said as I pushed him to the stairs)
Me: 3ala ma ur "baby" yenweled mako kelyoom daray
Dhary: 3ad chenaa m6awel !!(dhary pointed out as we giggled and walked down the stairs)

Reversing out of the garage...
Dhary: ha sarooon wain tabin nakil?
Me: wallah madry enta shyaay 3ala balik ana 3aady
Dhary: 3yal enro7 pancake house
Me: sure, 3ad 7ady meshtahya crepe with nutella

We went to pancake house for breakfast, I love that place, their crepes are amazing! We had a blast me and Dhary together now that we know about each other's feelings, he was flirting every now and then but all I did was try to shut him up. I don't know what to say in such situations.
Before we were done with our meal, Dhary received a call and excused himself,
I waited for what seemed like 30 minutes for him to come back but he didn't. i was surprised, Dhary mu mn 3awayda ehdni eb ay mkan w yamshi 3ani.
I thought he left me here so I asked for the check and paid it.
I went to the bathroom and fixed myself. I had no idea what to do next. how the hell am i going home. I need to get myself a car!
I was about to leave the restaurant when I saw Dhary outside still talking on the phone. I sighed in relief. I thought he left me here.
I walked out, Dhary didn't notice me, he was in a middle of an argument. kan 7ada em3a9b. last time i saw him like this was yesterday when he saw Fahad with me.

Dhary: mu shghli... bent khaltich khatdawerlaha ghairy!! ana ma abeeha 3umry ma shft'ha ka zoja! ... entay tstahbleen wela shnu! GELTCH LAA2 LA T7AWLEEN!!! ... ee a7b !! .. la asm3ch etyebeen 6areeeha .. el banaya san3a w ra7 akhtha .. r'9aitaw wela ma re'9aitaw. ... la mani m36i a7ad for9a ... agool Dhay ana 6awalt m3ach o hathy salfa ma teswa... ghairha ana mani ma5th ...

Me: e7m ... hey enta hnee w ana adawrk (I acted as if I didn't hear anything he just said)
Dhary: dgega Sara ... Dhay yalla ana basaker etha tabeen shay BBM
Me: enshallah ma tkhaleeni dakhel broo7i ! I thought you left me behind!
Dhary: asf Sara bas knt akalm ahali w 9ayra chum salfa bel Kuwait w khathani el kalam w nseetch
Me: haha la 3adi, you dont have to explain yourself g3da a6afrik
Dhary: ba3ad t6aafreeny! (He said trying to joke)
Me: eee (trying to forget what I heard)

I'm still shocked of what I heard him say earlier. What's going on? Is he getting married to his cousin! I do not see marrying a cousin as a good thing and actually all I hear about is that they end up fighting. What’s wrong with them forcing him into marrying his cousin he doesn’t like her or for this case love. I don't know why or how but I remembered Hamad. Ahh 7amaad how much I wish you were here, allah yer7mk!

Me: I need to go somewhere, do you wanna meet up later or...
Dhary: wain betro7een?
Me: to Noodie’s place twadeeni ?
Dhary: ana mu glt ba6al3ich elyoum laish tgoolin laha ena btyeenha
Me: I didn’t she text me when I was waiting for you dakhil (BIG FAT LIE)
Dhary: oh ok 5ala9 mako mushkila awadeech o bacher enkamil meshwarna
Me: enshallah
I quickly called Noodie(Al Anoud) to tell her that I invited myself over to her place.
Outgoing Call Noodiee
Me: Noodie 5 mins wakoon 3endch
Alanoud: wtf u never told me you were coming over
Me: lala maby I watch a scary movie I want a romantic/comedy one! (arage3)
Alanoud: FINE
And I hung up and turned to face Dhary…
Me: wenta shbetsawy?
Dhary: wallah madry bs ymkin ashoof eshabab waroo7lihom inteyama3
Me: nice enjoy! I’ll call you if I needed a ride back home (I said when we were a street away from Noodie’s place)
Dhary: ok
I thanked him for the ride and walked up to her floor and into her apartment. That girl is the laziest person on planet Earth, she was still in her Pj’s and messy hair! Oh did I mention that her apartment was so clean and organized that every time she uses something she puts it back to where she got it. Ok. You got it right? I'm being sarcastic! Her apartment is a mess!
You see I'm this kind of person that returns stuff to where they belong!
A messy environment is just isn’t mine.
Me: masadeg!
Alanoud: la sadgyy
Me: why’s everything all over the place
Alanoud: ‘cause that’s just how I ROLL !
Me: I can’t stay here gomay I want to go somewhere
Alanoud: lets go to a far mall out of town! And shop!
Me: not bad, I could do some shopping
Noodie got up to change quickly and thankfully she just took 20 mins, while I on the other hand was fixing her living room and putting back everything to where it belongs! Then we left the apartment and got into her car to enter our destination. As the Gps started it's route and we followed I filled the air with music from my ipod and it's radio/connection.
It took us 30-40 mins to get there since it wasn’t in our town; we started with Macy’s and ended up by Nordstrom. We didn’t shop the usual shopping this time with less shopping bags and brains, which means thinking not once but twice before getting the thing.
By that I mean we took a long LONG time choosing between silly stuff, you know when you see those American families buying their kids new trainers (shoes) and they’re stuck between two pairs and don't know which one to buy! Well we were kind of doing what they do, like “Sara! Think about it and we’ll come back if you really want it”- this in other words means we’ll never come back for it. We didn’t try that way because well it's to save our money, well we did it trying to imagine how we’d be ike being in their shoes!
When we were about to leave Macy’s and walk to the car…
Me: waay I'm so tired matet9awerain!
Alanoud: me too! God this mall is HUGE!
Me: I'm so wearing that Pj after today’s before bed shower! (I said excitedly)
Alanoud: I didn’t like the print it's ugly but I like it because it's tight AND he’s going to like it!
Me: 6a3 hathy! It's not tight and I'm not wearing it unless I'm in my room!
I said as Noodie started making fun of how I spoke and how I reacted to her comments.
When we were heading back home Dhary called…
Me: hey you
Dhary: halla
Me: shfeeek? 9outik may6amin
Dhary: madry a7es edenya tdour feeni 7ady ta3ban, entay meta tkhal9in?
Me: I'm done come pick me up whenever, weeh matshouf shar ymkin laish gwamtik ‘3a9ib elyoum?
Dhary: wallah mayndara bs laish la2…tara ana now 6ali3 msafat il 6reej wakoon 3endch
Me: enshallah

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2011-08-28T19:52:00.000-07:00

There you go as promised :D

Dhary: momkin tfahmeeny wain kentay?

Me: excuse me? Am I your sister? Daughter?

Dhary: jawbeeeny

Me: Malik sheghl

I said and walked past him to my room and before I could shut the door and lock it stopped me and pushed the door open

Dhary: laman akalmich yufathal ena mata36eeny thahrich o tamshin fahma?

I looked at him taken aback

Dhary: 9ij eny mu oboch wala o5och bs ley 7ag arakeb ta9arofatich el tafha

Me: laish enta rayly? * I gave him that look of sarcasm*

Dhary: SARAAA ! intay ga3da mny weyaah broo7ich! Gabl ghaaiiiir gabl e7na mawjodin ma3akom o en 5alainakom bn5aleekom degayeg mu sa3aat!

Me: He’s just a friend 7ala mn 7alik hatha ba3ad we don't sleep in the same apartment methl ma ga3da asawy 7aleyan weyak!

Dhary: ana maddry entay shno shu3ooorich tejah Fahad o maaaby a3aref bss…

Me: bsss shno!

Dhary: bs haal ma95ara maby ashofha mara thanya!

Me: ay ma95ara hathy! Ag9aaha chay o enkaab !

Dhary: BAAS BAAS CHAAAY HAA !

Me: EEE ee la o ana bafham enta shtaby mny bthab6! Adry kesart 5a6rik o 3ayashtny 3endik and you took care of me and thankyou for that bs now I can live by my own!

Dhary: ek moshkila eny magdaar la2ana O5OOOCH mwa9eeeny 3alaiich ! *sigh *

That’s when I started tearing up and I realized that all of this was because Hamad’s last words were to Dhary and that he wanted him to take care of me since he’s gone…

He looked down at me and said…

Dhary: while I was doing all this for my best friend’s sister, I fell in love with her

I looked up at him covering half of my face, actually covering my smile and my tears, then he pulled my hands away to see my face. That’s when I started blushing

Me: hmm

Dhary: shno hmmmm mn9ijy tara

Then I opened the door pushed him out and locked it

I heard his laugh and heard footsteps walking away, I laid down on bed started thinking then I realized what happened and started jumping on the bed like crazy but I tried not to make any noise so he doesn’t hear my excitement. Then I ran to the toilet to take a shower, when I was drying my hair with my towels I heard knocks on my door.

Me: hala?

Dhary: ba6lay el baab… akalmich mn wara el bab mathaln?

I unlocked the door and peeked with my wet hair dangling

Me: yep?

Dhary: barid sheqety tamreen 3ala shay gabl la amshy?

Me: Mmmm shrayek tnaam eb dar 7amad? :D

Dhary: t5aafin ha? * wiggles his eyebrows*

Me: laa bas a5aaf 3alaik enta bro7ik mno ye6ba5lik :p

Dhary: eeee raag3aaay ;p 3ariif sowalfich ana ;)

Me: khalas kaifek Go sleep at your apartment ALONE

As I was about to close the door he pushed it open and came in

Me: LAAAAA

Dhary: bs dashayt ba3ad shno la2

I was only wearing a tank top and boxers... girly ones I mean, I quickly grabbed my baby blue robe and put it on!

I bit my lip and started looking left and right, my cheeks were best described as tomatoes!

Dhary: sta7aytay? ;)

Me: *whispered * No

And now my cheeks turn into a darker shade of red…

Dhary: btnaamin?

Me: I guess

Dhary: yala goodnight latagfelin bab darich it frustrates me ana bagfel bab el sheqa wamshy

Me: hmm ya3ny mara7 tnam hnee? * I asked disappointed*

Dhary: ze3altay ? khala9 khala9 banam hnee Bas elyoum!

Me: okay :)

Dhary: ga3deeny okay? Mu 3ala bo mesta7ya tkhaleeeny anam laih elyoum ely warah ;p

Me: heheh enshallah

I woke up the sound of my daily alarm, and then I washed my face, changed into a dress and fixed my hair. Then I went to Hamad’s room, which is now Dhary’s… I hesitated but then I took a deep breathe knocked on the door and went in.

Me: hmmm Dhary yala goum inta gtly aga3dik

No Answer… so I walked to the bed to see him shirtless deep in his sleep. He looked so innocent in his sleep that I felt bad for waking him up but he told me to do so.

I placed my hands on his bare arm and shook him slowly

Me: Dhary yala go—oummm

When I was about to say my last word he pulled me and suddenly I find myself on the bed on the other side.

Dhary: ana ga3ed mnzmaaaaaan * yawns*

Me: :O

Dhary: alaaaah 5oush shu3oor klyoum agoum walgach eb wayhy

Me: mashallah 7adik romancy ! (I said as I was about to get up)

Little did I know that he was going to pull me back again!

Dhary: ta3aalaay hnee wain ray7a!

Me: chethy t3aber 3an 7obik by breaking my bones! Aaaaah

That’s when he pulled me into a hug and squeezed me real tight

Dhary: o chethy ba3ad :D mmm enzain ma glteely entay mat7ebeeny?

Me: Mmmmm *my cheeks started turning redder by the second*

Dhary: sta7aat staa7aaat! *he said out loud *

Me: oushh latef’9a7na! *I covered his mouth with my hand *

Then he kissed that hand I used to cover his mouth with and said…

Dhary: sh-haal kash5a 7ag mno haa ? ;)

Me: kl mara aksha5 a9lan …enzain hedny fa8a9tnyy

Dhary: mu 3alay hasooowalif ;p.. many mhadich shbetsawin !

Me: yala goum bs 3aib mama ma ter’9a .. hahahhaa

Dhary: ya 7alat el mama o bnt-ha

I got up shyly and left him lying there in bed…

Suddenly Dhary started screaming from Hamad’s room while I shouted back

Dhary: swaaaiirr lebsaaaay OK! Baraygich bara

Me: ana labsaa enta goum ghasil o elbs

Dhary: lebsay shay e’3a6y hatha mu mal 6al3a….

Mmmm I seriously do not know what is wrong with what I'm wearing, it isn’t that revealing anyways but I think it's because it's sleeveless ! But I'm not going to turn something like this into a fight so I just changed into a pair of jeans, a cute top and wore my Vegan black and white toms.

I bumped into him as I was walking through my open door and thank god he didn’t comment.

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Heal Me 29

2011-08-27T17:06:00.000-07:00

I'm officially back to posting like a proper blogger not daily but maybe every two days or so :D

I'm sorry for taking so long :( this goes out to all my followers :* thanks for being patient

Dhary drove me to my/Hamad’s apartment. We got out of the car walked together to the elevator and out on the second floor.

As we both stood there facing the apartment door, he tossed the key as I smiled knowing that this is Hamad’s key from the key chain.

Me: allah yaster (I mumbled as I unlocked the door)

We walked in and the housekeeper was not here yet. The apartment really needs cleaning.

Dhary: fahad dazly Bbm gal byeebha 3ashan tna’9if el she8a, ana bamshi asaweeli cham shaghla 3ala ma tkhal9een … etha khala9tay degay 3alai 3ashan amrch

Me: okay okay mashkoor

Dhary: 7yach (he left)

I looked around and sighed, remembering all the happy moments I’ve had with my dear brother and how we used to chase each other around the apartment.

That’s when it hit me when we came back to America and we started cleaning well guess what he said since I was a girl I should be cleaning the bathrooms and when I did I saw that really weird creature that was half cockroach and half fly! OH GUESS what YES I started screaming like crazy, he came and killed it then held it from its whiskers and started chasing me around the apartment with it!

Oh I never mentioned that I fear insects it’s kinda like my phobia K

The door bell rang which brought my thoughts back to reality,

I opened the door, Fahad got in without even saying hi and the maid followed,

Me: ba3aad ! dash sheqety o mayaby esalm wala 5oush ! :p

Fahad: shtabin hatha bayty el thany

Me: mn meta enshalllah tesajal besmik wana madry ?

Fahad: hahahha ha shlonich ? baih entay mn meta mu dasha hne laish mu mna’9fenha

Me: I’m staying at dhary’s!

Fahad: HE FINALLY PROPOSED !

Me: HAAAA!!

Fahad: 3aayal !

Me: bs chethy im staying at his place because he said I should

Fahad: aaahh mu hayen bu dharwa wallah

We kept chit chatting about how life has been and he updated me about some of the guys while the maid cleaned the two bedrooms.

Maid: ma’am do you need me to get you supplies from the grocery store?

Me: ambaaiihh! No no thankyou I’ll do that myself you can just clean up please….(I turned to face fahad) lala you guys embad3een! 7atan el grocery shopping 3alaiiha! Omg you guys are lazy! Wana agol laish when I went with dhary to Giant mu 3aref shyeshtery wallah 7ala

Fahad: you can ignore her and go buy the supplies please(he told her, then turned to face me) hahah 3ad Dharooy yetfanan shwaya bl akil

Maid: sure i wil do

Me: emt shako!... ee 6al ib3ainik bas fale7ly wesawy bai’9 makhlou6

Then we both cracked up and started making fun of Dhary maskeen

It suddenly hit me that I didn’t actually offer Fahad ely mayestahel shay something to drink or eat so I excused myself to make us green tea

When I got back and placed the two matching mugs on the tea table he took a sip then started whining

Fahad: a77 9la5ny, yeeeww ma9ikhh!

Me: el7in ana tawny yaybeta shako teshreba! O ba3dain green tea may7e6on feeh sugar

Fahad: gomay yeebely wentay sakta :p

When I was about to get up I accidentally hit his mug with my legs and it spilt all over my thighs! It was burning like hell I started screaming and the maid came out of the bathroom scared

Fahads reaction was so dumb that he got up and got tiny kitchen towels and placed them on my thighs which made it even worse!

Me: ya ghabby shako towels!

Fahad: shdarany ba3ad

And suddenly I started laughing because he looked hilarious not knowing how to react and his hands still holding the towels on my thighs

At that same moment the apartment door was unlocked and Dhary walked in surprised, we both looked at him then Fahad moved his hand away and sat upright.

It was really awkward for me since Fahad and Dhary were in their own world talking about god knows what and avoiding my existence

I got up to find any suitable thing to wear other than that skinny jeans that has green tea all over it.

When I got back to the living room Fahad was gone and the maid too so it was Dhary and me alone again. I sat on the single couch while he was so into what he was thinking about trying so hard to show that he is actually watching Tv which he isn’t.

Me: hmm dhary?

Dhary: (he turned his face, facing me now)

Me: I want to stay here from now on

Dhary: mubkaifech (and he turned back to face the Tv)

Me: I asked politely okay? And I deserve a reasonable answer! O laish mnafis!

Dhary: …bnaya bro7ha teg3ad bl sheqa, la2

I ignored him because I really don’t care what he thinks I’m staying here whether he likes it or not!

Dhary: laish badaltay

Me: hdoumi kanat klha chay

Dhary: shkentaw tsawon ely enkab chay 3alaich

Me: wala shay knt bogaf bs 7sht eeda o enkat 3alay

Dhary: ba3dain hatha shyaby yay ga3ed hnee weyach?

Me: wow shno ya3ny a9lan he was waiting for the maid to finish up

Dhary: laish o hal maid mategdar tred bro7ha ?

Me: how am I supposed to know! Why the questions?

Dhary: bs…

I walked out of the apartment fast, plugging my earphones and played music over and over again, till I found an empty bench and occupied it. That’s where I started thinking. I stayed there till midnight then decided to find my way back since it's getting late and the gloomy sky was starting to frighten me.

As soon as I entered the building I pulled my earphones and wrapped them around my iPod and slid them in my pockets. The elevator door slid open I saw my apartment door wide open the way I left it. I walked into the apartment to find Dhary the way I left him still sitting on the same sofa!

Coldly Dhary spoke without looking at me...

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Heal Me 28

2011-07-29T02:53:00.000-07:00

Sorry...

ok la7ad e6egny :| wallah what i've been through is indescribable but i enjoyed most of it ! :D

ok so there goes the post its good not long or short action is coming up the next few posts ;D

enjoy! this goes out to all readers that are waiting for this post :p

Dhary came back to the living room after he ate his plate of "bai'9 makhlou6" with his orange juice, as soon as he sat on the other end of the sofa his mobile rang.

Dhary: waiihh

He placed his juice on the tea table and rushed to get his mobile from his room.

Dhary: halaaa walaa...tamam int shloonik mn zmaaan 3anik...oooh thakartny elyoum dewaniya waiih 3ad ta3baan lail akher...enshoofkom lesbo3 el yay enshallah salim salim

He came back to the living room and sat on his end of the sofa

Me: 3ady inro7 she8atna el 8adeema?

Dhary: laish la2…t7tajain ashya2?

Me: I want to look around and well i dunno

Dhary: yalla sure I'll call fahad 3ashan edeg 3al 3ayouza ily tnathef she8eta khal tsani3 o tnathef while we're there

Me: ok

We watched some retarded show that i never liked!

After what seemed like an hour Dhary told me to get dressed

I wore my skinny jeans with a flawless top and a pair of flats, took out my tiny cross bag it only held a cardholder, my phone and a lipbalm. Tiny i know…

Didn't bother doing anything to my hair just had a hairband on my wrist incase I needed it.

I text Alanoud while walking out of the room to the living room where dhary was waiting

Nooodss please drop by at our apartment not dhary's we're cleaning today and i dont feel like spending today with him alone loveyou xx

I slid my phone back in my bag and looked up to see him thinking deeply looking at one of the vases on the tea table

Me: mmm yala dhary khala9t?

Dhary: hmmm bas yebeely tshirt mn el kabat o ge6ay hathy bl laundry basket

Me: which one?

Dhary: i dont mind

I took his dirty one threw it in the basket and opened his closet to find him a shirt, as i opened it i frooze i saw the bag he brought the other day and it was unzipped!

I sat on my knees and carefully started taking out some clothes that was when i realized that this bag wasn't anyoneelses bag it was Hamad's! The one i packed for him when they went on that roadtrip!

I started taking out his clothes and looking at them and when i got his favourite shirt i held it close to my chest, closed my eyes, looked up and whispered to myself 'allah yer7umik ya 7amad' i opened my eyes and looked at it then a tear escaped my eyes and found its way down my cheeks.

Then i heard footsteps and wiped my tears

Dhary: yala saa-raa…

He frooze and looked down at me then he sighed and came closer. When he got really close he came down to my eye level and leaned on my shoulder for support

Dhary: ana asef bas ma knt abeech tshofina i knew it would break your heart

I looked at him helplessly then managed to talk back

Me: hathy his shirt kan e7ebha akthar shay *tears escaped my eyes*

Next thing i know i was held in dhary's arms tightly, then he pulled me up and sat me on his bed.

He held both my hands and looked straight into my eyes and gave me a lecture a spectacular one not like the ones i got from others, this one was different…

Dhary: you have to be strong, someday you will face obstacles in life and somehow u have to learn how to get past them,

I nodded then he took me to the toilet

Dhary: no one wants to see you chethy yala ghaslay wayhich and im still waiting for the shirt ;) ana na6rech bl 9ala

Me: enshallah *a smile appeared my face as he winked*

I washed my face and went back to the room to find him a suitable shirt, i bent down and saw Hamad's favourite shirt i grabbed it and stood in the doorway.

Me: Dhary it is okay if you wore this for today? (I asked as I held the shirt)

Dhary: sure toss? :D

I tossed the shirt at him and walked to the couch

Dhary: wain tg3edin yala we have lots of work to do today ;)

Me: heheh ok

I got up and walked to the door as he followed me out.

As we drove to our building and parked in the driveway he took out a key chain which belonged to Hamad and tossed it to me.

Me: mashkour dhary matga9er for what you’re doing for me

Dhary: 7ayaach

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Heal Me 27

2011-06-01T04:02:00.001-07:00

Hello

are you all doing well on your exams? don't you just love finals days? well i do :D

I'm sorry i kept you waiting for too long, because i did i thought i'd make it up to you by posting this week a long post :p

oh and I'm leaving K town for summer in what like mmmm 4 DAYS :D u can tell I'm excited

I sat there on the sofa and kept staring through the wide open door at the bag and clothes that he left on his bed. Thinking deeply about where he got them from could he be possibly seeing someone else or what!

Suddenly he stood there and blocked my eyes of looking at the bed which got be back in reality.

Dhari: shfeech?

Me: mm mafeeny shay... could you get your laptop 3ashan bakalm the twins

Dhari: yallah now ayeeba bs 6al3ay il sha7en bl el kabat ily ta7t il TV

Me: ok

I got up opened the cupboard and put my head through when got hold of the wire I straightened my head which wasn't a clever thing to do when you're in that position. My head hit the top base of the cupboard I felt dizzy but I held my head and put my right hand on the floor for support. I tried to keep quite and not give dhari a chance to notice.

He got into the living room and when he looked behind the cupboard door he saw me frozen in my place with my hand on my my head.

Dhari: ha legai...... Sara !! Shfeech

I got up

Me: ha mafeeny shay

I walked to the socket plugged the charger in and held the other side and walked back to the sofa. I sat and put my hand on where my head hit the cupboard and started rubbing on it.

I felt something liquid on my hands but I never thought it would be blood, it isn't very often that my skin gets cuts or fractured bones.

I grabbed a tissue wiped my hands and went to the toilet.

I washed my hands and that part of my head and left the toilet with a tissue on it

Dhari: wain re7tay?

Me: 7mam

And I sat inches away and placed his laptop on my lap to sign in on Skype

Dhari: shfee hal kleenex m3alig brasich?

Me: Ana 7a6eta khaalaah fee dam

Dhari: mn shno ? Sh9ar

Me: 6ag rassy bl kabat mal il TV

Dhari: o laish mate7achayn ?

Me: bas

And I continued typing my password

Then I clicked enter and got up to remove the tissue so the blood dries and heals faster

I got my phone and sat back down by Dhari while the laptop was on the tea table I text Nora

Norii I'm online yallah sign in

Nora

El yahal ga3din in front of the laptop yan6eronich

call

Seconds later the screen flashed indicating the Skype call I answered and looked at Dhari who was unexpectedly looking at me, I shyly looked back at the screen and saw feda and faroosi I switched my camera ON so they could see me.

Baby Feda: mama see atty salaa (points at the screen)

Me: Feda youu miss me?

Jealously faroosi replied

Baby Fares: I Biss you

Me: 7beeby me too

They sang me the famous Barney I love you song which we all once loved, then they started running around and showing me their new toys.

Then me and their mom started chatting while they watched Barney the living room.

Nora: 3ayal shloon Dhary wel bajy

I slowly turned laptop so it would face him

Me: Kahoo dhary yesme3ich :p

Nora: oh dhary shloonik shakhbarik? 3asa 7amaty m2atheetik? (I love how she says 7amaty I find it cute!)

Dhary: Hala Walla tamam il 7mdellah, off 7adha yanenatny Barney o Barney manshof ila Hal Barney

I pinched his thigh slowly

Nora: hahha wallah tnakit ya7lailek

Dhary: intaw shloonkom shloon aziz o khalty?

Nora: klna bkhair bs walhanen 3alaikom

Dhary: walhana 3alaina wela bas Sara! Go lay e9ij 3adyy :p

I turned laptop so now it faces me

Me: 6aaaa3 hatha :p Nora nadeehom (the kids) ma sheba3t la7gin 3ala Barney

Nora: fares Feda ta3alaw o 9kaw il TV wela akser the CD

Twins: NO mama :(

Nora: yallah now tara agouum

Dhary: olaa Nora mu hayna

Me: mesakin :/

Dhary: asasan gam tzefhom 3ashanich

They came running back to the laptop

Baby Feda: mama mno hada? (points at the screen)

Dhary: mat3arfeeny afaa ana ely

Baby Feda: la2

Me: hatha 3amy dhary u forgot him?

Baby Feda: eeee

Baby Fares: antyy Sara I see ur baby

Me: FAROOSI NO UNCLE DHARY MY BEST FRIEND :p not husband

The twins both looked at their mama puzzled and I looked at the ape sitting right next to me who was laughing his ass off!

Nora: saroona namaw Ana khal anayem el yahal 3ashan yanzelon 7ag omich 3al magharb

Me: Okay yallah bbye F&F

Nora: flying kiss 7ag aunty yallah

Twins: *kiss their tiny hands and blow the kiss *

Me: I love you bbye

Twins: bye *waving *

And we hang up then I turned it off pulled my knees to my chest

Me: so according to my niece im your wife *disgusted look *

Dhary: e7a9elich la o mu bas my wife om 3yaly ba3ad * wink wink*

Me: chub

I pulled one of the sofa's pillows and threw it at him and he started cracking up again!

5 minutes later I leaned back so my head was on the arm of the chair and slept.

The sun shined that morning I tilted my head and looked out the window then when I stretched my legs I hit something I froze in my stretch. Then I heard...

Dhary: hmm eaa3a cham?

I sat up to see that dhary was sleeping on the other end of the big sofa.

Me: haa enta laish nmt hnee?

Dhary: entry ely lash nmtay 3ala my sofa mo etefa8na entay hnak?

Me: Ana bl ghala6 nmt

Dhary: 7atan Ana

Me: ohh

I got up fixed my clothes that were all over the place and headed straight to the toilet, I spotted that bag on my way there and sighed as I locked the door twice and did my business.

I walked into the 1x1m closet and slipped on my light blue jeans with a white loose top and dark leather flops. I left the room and found dhary by counter doing god knows what

Dhary: sawait bai'9 makhlou6 tabeen?

Me: I don't eat egg or sliced cooked tomatoes bakil cornflakes

Dhary: afaa shfeech mnafsa 3alayy?

Me: shako mnafsa lat2alef ashya2

I took out a bowl from a cupboard and a spoon from the drawer, then filled my bowl with coco pops<3 and added hot milk that I heated on the stove.

Dhary: laish 7aleeb 7ar?

Me: la2ana a7b laman the flakes become soggy and chewable

Dhary: staghferallah

Me: * rolled my eyes at him*

Dhary: have I ever mentioned ena ma7b people who roll their eyes and I think that’s very rude

Me: * my jaw dropped* ok so ana gtlik 7bny? :D and if you think it's rude well I respect your opinion

Dhary: mn 9ijy

Me: wana ba3ad mn9ijy laish shayfny mayta ‘97k jdamik?

Dhary: yanaitay ?

Me: ma7ad ely yaaan ghairik… wallah may3ajbik el 3ajab *sigh *

I got hold of my warm bowl of cereals and walked to the sofa, I sat and pulled up my legs and turned on the tv and started enjoying my morning.

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Heal Me 26

2011-04-22T06:08:00.001-07:00

Hey I'm sorry for the delay may i be forgiven ? :D

again I'm sorry and there you go

the weather is so depressing and somehow my family are liking it *sigh *

but guys its better than having earthquakes and floods wallah I thank god for that!

enjoy

I was suddenly daydreaming

Then my phone buzzed on my lap that it got me back to reality, it kept buzzing non-stop!!

Me: mako 9aabrrr!! Ifff (and I grabbed my phone)

It continued pinging that got me going crozy for a while, and when I clicked on tht bbm icon I see that this stupid person pinging was surprisingly the one right next to me!

He burst out laughing thinking it was funny

Dhari: hahahahahahaha wallah inich 9aida

Me: ana 9a-aii-daa?? Ha (got up)! Ta3aal ya 8aleeeel el 7aya (runs after him)

Dhari: *running away* ana ely a3arfa 8aleel el adab o jleeel el 7aya mu 8aleeel el 7aya !!

Me: ta3aaaaal taa3aaaaal a3almik mno ana

Dhari: ookhh o laish ana ma a3arfich mn gabl? :p

I decided to shut up because answering back was not helping at all, then I chased him halfway around the chairs my flip flop was kindof in my way when turning and running on the ceramic floor, it was so slippery when I started running, that I fell while I turned to continue running after him!

You could picture me laying down on my tummy hands covering my face! I looked so pathetic and embarrassing

I could feel him walking over to me somehow not laughing I really don’t get how he managed to hold his laugh because myself was laughing at myself silently

He held my right arm and I helped by turning to face him

Me: hahahahaha (covering myy face back again)

Dhari: 7mdellah wesheker grindizer mu bnaya ;p

Me: tadry etha t3awwaaart chan ebtelasht feeny 3adel fa bas e7mid rabik!

He got up and stretched out his arm for me, like I'm gonna get hold of his arm…

Me: ya3ny betra’9eeny mathalan maad eedik ? (getting up)

Dhari: afaaaa hatha yzaaay el7in ya shagoool

I went over to the washing machine to take out the clothing and put ‘em in the dryer.

Me: aahh mmm dhari , click numbers 3 4 and 5 7ag el nashafaa :D

Dhari: inshallah Mary! Wallah 7ala el7in mary ely mfroo’9 teshteghl 7ge gam tsha’3elny

I gave him that stare but I don't think it scared him

Dhari: ba3ad hatha el9ij ! yaaahh

Me: 6aa3 hatha agool bas 6gly el buttons, etha ana mu 5al6a lehdoum chan sheft-hom fougik bas lel2asaf our clothes are mixed ! :|

Dhari: yallah 6agayt :p

Round and round the dryer went, then I suddenly remembered the last time I skype-d with my niece and nephew. Actually the last time I did was before heading back to Kuwait, god I miss them and the way Fares called my name and how Feda calls me aunty when she sees me.

Me: Dhari ? ( I looked his way)

Dhari: hala

Me: negdar we skype elyoum bakalm e3yal o5oy o ahaly welaht 3alaihom

Dhari: eee enshallah shoufay ohwa tara a7san wagt ba3ad shway wela tabin nes-har tkalmeenhom el 9b7?

Me: 5al nes-har chena enamoun embacher fa manla7eg 3ala ma n5ale9 laundry

Dhari: yallah 3ayal 3gb dewaniyatna elyoum americh mn 3nd al3noud

Me: ok thankyouu

I got up before my whole leg goes numb; I walked around the seats and in no time the dryer stopped. So I rushed to it with one of the baskets and threw all the fresh, cleaned clothes in it. Then I did the next two.

I placed the two baskets on top of the washing machines and started folding our clothes. Undies to shirts to pants to dresses to leggings to socks and I was DONE!

I turned to find Dhari sound asleep on his chair head tilted backwards, phone in his hands. I walked over to him and started taking his phone out of his hands to wake him.

As I pulled half of it out of his hands his eye lids started to open :p

Me: Rise and shine bsmellah tawna ga3din 7atan ma 9ar el ‘9hr :p

Dhari: malayt wana an6erich shasawy (rubbing his own eyes)

Me: yallah goum ? o tsheel ma3ay sallah please?

Dhari: yalah 3a6eeny (he got up)

I got him one of the baskets I felt really sorry for waking him up but I don't really get how he slept b/c to me it wasn’t that comfortable sleeping on a hard plastic chair!

We walked to the elevator and then into his apartment.

Me: meta betrooo7 7ag your dewaniya? (I asked dhari as I was putting away his clothes in his closet)

Dhari: ba3ad shway

Me: tan6erny a5ale9 o abadel then u drop me off at al3noud’s ?

Dhari: sure

Me: mashkouuur (I shouted at him)

Dhari: 7ayaach

I arranged all his clothes back in the closet and left mine in the basket, then I got changed and we headed to Alanoud’s. He dropped me off and went to meet his friends.

I knocked on her apartment door once and she quickly opened it!

Me: chena u were waiting for me by the door (trying to act special)

Alanoud: laa bas knt by the counter and the door wasn’t that far lat9adgy nfsik

Me: a7eb shloon u keep trying to talk kuwaity * hug*

Alanoud: at least I'm trying “mu mthlich” u gave up on learning how to speak in Saudi Arabian accent

Me: it sounds so funny when I do !! a7s nafsy a nerd that doesn’t talk other than “lo’3a 3arabiya “

Alanoud: t9adgy 7abayt the Kuwaity way of talking…anyways lets watch a movie and o I’ll make popcorn and heat up water for macarooonii and cheese baby!

Me: wohoo yeah long time since w last saw a movie together! Ohh please this time no horror or I’ll be sitting on your lap by the end!

Alanoud: hahahahaha I'm in the mood for comedy/romance kinda movies

Me: suree!!

Alanoud: A Walk to Remember ? mnzmaan ma shfnah

Me: eee a7ebaa yallah! Bas aby a box of tissues please

Wondering why I need tissues oh then here I am telling you I am that kind of person that my eyes tear up a lot when those kinda scenes pop up. And if I ask for a tissue during the movie Alanoud would just kill me so why risk it ! get it myself and stay outa trouble :p

About an hour later after the movie had started and we’d eaten half of what we have. I got too tired that my eyelids shut down basically.

I was awakened when Alanoud tried helping me up I guessed that Dhari came to pick me up.

Me: I'm sorry babe I slept during the movie 9aa7?

Alanoud: ohh 3ady no big deal we’ll watch it again

Me: ok

I walked to the door and saw Dhari waiting by the elevator

Dhari: 9aba7 el 5air

Me: hehe 9aba7 el nour

We got in the elevator and out then into the car and he started the engine and tried reversing out of the car park he said…

Dhari: sara nazlay el kersy mn el buttons etha betnamin

Me: la maby anam bnkalm feda o farosi nesayt *I turned his direction&smiled then I pulled the car mirror down*

Omg I looked so hilarious my hair was all over the place and my eyes looked sleepy and funny. I looked t my wrist hoping that I have a hair rubber band. Wohoo I do have one actually. I braided my long black hair loosely and tied it.

Dhari: ya7lailich t3achfin 7ag nafsich

Me: eee wayed sahel mno may3aref :p * I looked at the digital car clock* ashwa esa3a 11:20 ya3ny ma9ar belail 3ndhom :p

Dhari: ee la yamdy

He parked we got down Dhari went to the trunk and brought a handbag with him.

I actually didn’t bother asking from where he got it but I didn’t like the feeling I got because when we got upstairs he took out clothes, which seemed like they were his and some of his underwear and put them on his bed.

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Heal Me 25

2011-03-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

ok so this is the next post i hope you like itt !

9arly a week sickk 7ady ta3bana ):

Me: please lat9ek el baab ;/

Dhari: enshallah...bs may2atheech el tv ?

Me: no mayhem la2any ta3bana mara7 anze3ij

Dhari: okay yalla akhaleech... namay

Me: ok

He left the door wide open and sat in the living room watching tv. The next thing i knew i was sound asleep and woke up the next day really tired not wanting to get out of bed. I got hold of my blackberry and texted alanoud on bbm

Sara

Heyy you long time since i last saw you! Actually 4 days? :p lets hang out today sh3endich?

I waited for a reply for about 10 minutes but she didnt answer back so i got up shut the door slowly and took a shower. I dont take really long in showers because you know what happens to the windows and mirrors when you shower in hot water!:) i stepped out of the shower and found a reply ....

Noody(alanoud)

Hello missy where have you beeen! I missed you too....im sorry i was working on Dr.Clive's project those past days and you know midterms blah blah oohh and sure come over whenever you feel like seeing me :p

Sara

Hahaha it sucks to be youu im just too lucky i got Fred's instead and not him! I'll come after taking the laundry downstairs ;D

I got up and changed into my fav. Pair of jeans and a maroon(love that colour) sweater and walked out to grab something to eat.

I got myself cereal and added milk to my bowl, then i sat on one of the sofa's by Dhari. I ate and went looking for quarters in my bag, then i took my phone and as i was about to head out of the room, i bump into dhari!

Dhari: aakhh *rubbing his eyes* asef ma shfticchh

Me: its ok *i tap on his shoulder and pass by him to get a basket for our laundry*

He turned still standing in the door way

Dhari: wain ray7a?

Me: aghasel hdoumna :p

Dhari: Mary btakheth hdoumy weyaha ?

Me: MARY 3A9EBAAAT O SHAKLLHAAA HAWENAAAT *i turned to face him from far distance and crossed my arm*

Dhari: how about i come watch you do the laundry 3al a8al ayee mu arou7 o entay tghaslin

Me: laaaa2 thankyouuu mabeeeeek aby arou7 brouuu7yy

Me:inshalllaah ma eyee weyay o e9afe6 o efaregly el colors weshoof my underwears!!! No way last time was a mistake when he made my suitcase

I sat on the couch and placed the basket by my foot.

Me: yeeb hdoummik ge6hom bl sallah

Dhari: sallat laila ?

Me: laa2 salat sara

Dhari: ohh wallah gmtay tge6in nekaat

Me: i learn from the best *winkwink* can i use your laptop?

Dhari: eeee shda3wa

Me: thanks

I took his laptop and put it on my lap

Me: fee password ta3al ktba please

Dhari: ohh tara yananteeeny (he came out of his room with white underwears hanging on his shoulder) wainn

Me: kaa yallah ( i turned the laptop so that its facing him)

Dhari: 8am'9ay 3ainich wela lefaay

Me: maaa a9aaadgikkk!

Dhari: lefay yallahhh

I turned my face to the other side of the living room waiting for his majesty to finish.

Dhari: (typing on his keyboard) LAAAAT6AAAL3IN!

I turned to face him

Me: ANNAAAA

Dhari: eeee ha 3ayal yadyyy??

Me: ektib ektib bas latgoum el 8eyaamaa

Dhari: hach khal arou7 alage6 hdoumyyy (he handed me his laptop and got up)

I accepted requests declined some replied to some facebook msgs, and emailed my professors for updates and what i should have ready by tomorrow. I skipped a whole week i guess i have a pile of assignments waiting for me. Then i signed out and put it back on the table.

Me: yallah khala9t? Yeeeb lefwaa6 wyaak

Dhari: enshallah 3amety, wain betro7in ba3dain?

Me: yemkin arou7 7ag alanoud

Dhari: ahhaa chena bnteyama3 3nd s3oud o 7amany ilyoum

Me: oh cool have fun

All that going on was when he was ga3ed "elage6" hdouma o ana akalma chethy 9rakh mn el 9ala laih edar.

Dhari: o hathaaayl hdoumy il wa9kha (he dropped them into the basket) ta3alay ekhthay el sallah ethanya 3ashan laman en9afe6 mn el dryer

Me: ok bas let me correct you laman *ana a9afe6 mu e7na ;p

Dhari: ohhoo

I went to the store room 7adha tiny feeha towels o tissue rolls and boxes and detol o sowalif chethy. Hatha el mokan el wa7eeed lemratab, o aham shay el mops ako anwa3 weya wayha shareehom klhom.

Anyways i got the yellow basket and placed the laundry one in it and carried it to the door.

Me: dhaaarryyy please my phone ipod majala o purse 3al tea table

Dhari: yayech (he came with my stuff) bage6hom hnee (ashering 3al laundry basket)

Me: eeeee eee o ta3al press the button bl elevator :D

Dhari: okay

Me: G please (:

Dhari: dhary fel 5edma :p(he bows)

Me: hahhahahhhaha (and the doors close leaving me laughing by myself chny 5bla)

The elevator doors slid open i got out and entered the washing machine salon, i sat on the chairs and separated the yellow basket from the blue one. Then i put the whites together with very light colors, greys and blacks together and so on. When i was about to close the washing machine's door i realized ena ma ybt el soap or the softner :/

Me: allah ma yer'9a e'9aher yabe dhari ekoun hnee ;p

I ping him and told him to bring both downstairs thank god all the clothes were in the machines and i was sure there wont be any bra or panty hanging from somewhere!

Sara

PING!!!

Softener and soap please theirs sucks please and thankyou....hurry

Dhari

Haaaaa

Okk omw (:

Sara

Cham maraa agolik ma7ib this emotion ugggghhhh

And now i can see he's ignoring b/c that little R( isn't little here but it is on bbm:p) has appeared

The doors of the wash salon opened i turned and saw that it was him, i left my stuff took out some quarters

Me: haak please ge6hom o press 11 12 13 o yeeb hatha (i grabbed the soap and softener from his hands)

He went to put the money so that the machines would start washing, then he came and sat 2 seats away from me took his phone out and started texting.

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Heal Me 24

2011-03-04T14:40:00.000-08:00

Dear Followers,

JUST REMEMBER THAT I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU

there's another post coming on the way

enjoy (:

I changed in his room into my PJ’s, which was a knee length short, and it's tee. I washed my face and put my hair up in a lose bun. Then I went back to the living room to see him sleeping on the couch, I guess he was sick of waiting while laying down on the couch.

I went back to the room got a blanket and covered him, but as soon as I did he opened his eyes (bad idea).

Me: mm sorry bas I though…

Dhari: 3ady (he cut me off)

Me: please you nap while a3adl laman a5ale9 aga3dik

I can see how tired he was so he just replied with…..

Dhari: ok (and he shut his eyes)

I placed the milk and juices in the fridge, put most of the canned and boxed food in the cupboards, and placed all our junk in a big bowl on the table where the highchairs are placed.

Then I sat on the kitchen floor folding the bags, traba3t o ge3adt you can say and I was so into it that every time I made one differently I’d open it and re-fold.

Dhari: … e7mmm heheheheh

I looked up, so innocent and when he started to laugh

I got up crossed my arms against my chest and looked at him.

Me: momkin afham shno ely e’9a7ik?

Dhari: salaaamtich

And he grabbed a gummy bear from my un-sealed packet

Dhari: ba6lay ba6laaay

Me: aaaaaaaa

And he threw it in

Dhari: shlonha

Me: good choice of color ;) orange has always been my favorite flavor

I made a fist with hand and hit his right shoulder as I walked past him. I got myself a tiny bottle of cold water out of the fridge and before I took my first gulp ….yup you guessed right he stole it!

Dhari: mashkouuraa (he shouted)

Me: bas 3aaaaaad taraa enta ma9a5t-haaa

And we started running after each other in the living room. Around the sofa’s, around the counter, in his bedroom, over his bed, in the bathroom tub….

I ran after him everywhere but when he went in the tub I stopped because I knew it would be a bad idea since the same scene has happened in front of my eyes in my childhood.

All kinds of noisy sounds took place that minute! The curtains fell over him in the tub and he was all messed up! His whole body in the tub but his left foot was dangling.

I stood there my hand over my mouth :|

Me: AAMMBAAAAAAIIHHH

I walked over to the tub, and Mr.Mean thought I was going to give him a hand, but no way he’s wrong…

Me: wayed sahalt 3alay el maw’9oo3

I turned the tap on and water starting hitting his face and body

Me: IT’S SHOWER TIME

I blew him a kiss and left the bathroom..

Me: ohh nisaaait shay

I opened the door put my head through and said

Me: deeerbalik latet3awar :p

Dhari: HAYEN YA SARA MA 3ERAFTAY MNO BU ‘9AARWAA

I left the bathroom and went to continue my business in the kitchen folding the bags, and when I finished I sat on the couch stretched my legs out on the tea table and started flipping through the TV channels.

Nothing caught my attention so I got up went to his bedroom and threw myself on his bed waiting for him to come out.

I dreamt, it was a long time since I last had a dream, and this dream had Hamad in I was with him walking to university after stopping at starbucks and having a wonderful time messing around, I couldn’t handle it so I woke up crying. At the same time realizing I was in Dhari’s bedroom covered in his bed covers.

I sat up and cried my heart out then laid back on my side and my tears rolled off my cheeks on to Dhari’s pillow.

Suddenly the door opens and Dhari came in and closed the door after him.

Dhari: Sara shfeech (he came and sat on the edge of the bed my back was to him)

I kept crying then he started rubbing my back and moving my hair behind my ear then he put his hand on my head.

I tried to calm myself down a little, and then I turned to face him.

Dhari: 7lamtay ?

Me: mmmm

Dhari: maykhalef ayeeblich mayy shrbay o namay on your right egolon ewakher nightmares (thats what older people used to tell me when i was a kid :D)

He left the room to get water, i on the other hand was scared. To me it was scary dreaming about a dead person it makes me feel that they're still here sometimes. The last time i dreamt about a dead person was ages ago back in London when i was a kid. I scared the hell outa my mom that day, i feel so sorry fo her. She didnt kniw what was wrong and i didnt tell only a year after or so.

Dhari: hach *he handed me the glass of water* samaay o golay باسمك اللهم اموت و احيا

Me: bsmelllah * i took a gulp and placed it on the bedside table* باسمك اللهم اموت و احيا

Dhari: t9be7in 3ala khair etha tabin shay ga3deeeny ana bl 9ala

And when he was about to close the door i stopped him

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Heal Me 23

2011-02-02T01:01:00.000-08:00

ok there thats the post o enshallah fee wara thany :D

i promised laman e9al7ona o 9ale7oh :D

Me: okay (:

I went to the cereal aisle trying to find my fav. One from kellogs

Me: mmm…heya kahwa (grabbed my box of coco pops) Coco pops

Dhari: *holding back his laugh * eentay shtsawin ? xD (he said chena chaak yahel mn7asha)

I kind of was embarrassed in a way because I didn’t know he came after me

Me: * shit shit shiit* ayeeb hatha : | (laykon sema3 klshay )

Dhari: aaah ok, bas tyeebeeena?

Me: eeeeeeeh

Dhari: 5air enshhallah

Me: walain shtaby enta bas taby tet-hawash!

Dhari: a3otho bellah bas 5ala9 ana asef

Me: 3abaly ba3ad (and he gave me that look but kept his mouth shut!)

From aisle to aisle we walk passing through junk, he grabs what he wants and throws it in his trolley while I on the other hand held everything in my hand trying to keep everything at balance without falling.

First came Coco Pops, then Toblerone, then the turkey sandwich, Gummy Bears, Bread and last but not least Nutella oooh and my drink Tropicana orange juice.

Dhari: tara be6e7on shrayech t7e6inhom hnee bl 3araba :p

Me: la wallah 3ashan tedfa3hom? Thanks for being so generous but no!

We got to the cashier I told him to go before me and I waited next. I found a basket, put my food in and waited in line after him.

Dhari: oooh sara ge6ay el sala bl ar’9 o yeebay 7aleeb!

Me: weeh, bas cheny shft bl she8a fee…

Dhari: la tawny sherabta

Me: out of the carton?

Dhari: eh

Me: yal wa9e5! (omg shfeny bada3t weyah afashl! ) ra7 tet3alam dars yded mny bl she8a elyoum

I placed the basket and walked to the fridges to get milk, I preferred low fat milk but the problem is I cant find it, I called the workers and he got me one from the store. I thanked him and walked to the cashier. Ok now my basket is missing! I'm gonna kill him anytime SOON!

Me: WAINHA SALETY? ( I asked as if talking to a kid)

Dhari: mmm kahee (and he points at an empty basket under the cashier stand)

Me: O ASHYA2Y WAINHA YA 7LW?

Dhari: kahom (he points at the moving cashier mat)

Me: la wallah?

Dhari: ee wallah

Me: akrehik ( I whispered at I leaned towards him and stood on my tiptoes)

Dhari: mashkora bas etha ma 3alaich amr t7e6in lashya2 bl chees?

Me: 7a’9r amrak ya seedy ( and of I go to put the stuff in bags since these freakin’ people don't do it for me)

I start to mumble while placing the stuff in bags and putting them by my feet when each bag gets full.

Dhari: basich te7el6im btet3awedain (he whispers as he leans forward and down to reach my ear)

Me: (and what’s that supposed to mean)

He picked up some of the bags and left the grocery store I picked up the rest and followed.

Dhari: na5ethlena film mn Best Buy wela matabin ?

Me: kaifek taby tshof movie?

Dhari: la madry maly 5lg

Me: wala ana

Dhari: fair enough… 3ayal inro7 now ta5theenlich hdoum?

Me: eee ok… bas meta ra7 ared a3eesh eb she8atna

Dhari: weshfeeha she8ety 5aysa?

Me: laaa bas ya3ny ena fashla o lazm aro7

Dhari: shoon teg3edin bro7ich (‘9ag 5lga madry laish)

Me: mmm your she8a isn’t that far mn malat...malatna bas etha taby you come move in it's better because agrab to university a9lan

It's weird that he kept quite and didn’t reply. It took a long time in the car I don't know where he’s taking me. I drifted to sleep, it's so usual because it's dark and I have nothing to do. And as soon as the car stops I wake up. So the car stopped and I woke up.

Dhari: shno tabin mn mcdonald’s?

Me: maby shay (and I shut my eyes and turned to the other side)

He got out to order, because it had a long queue outside for drive thru. Then he locked the car and that’s surprising.

I waited in the car and waited…. then I saw him coming, I shut my eyes fast, he got in and he started the engine and god knows where we’re going now.

And the car stops again I open my eyes turn, stretch and see that Dhari is staring

Me: mmmmm

Dhari: yala takhthin hdomich wela tg3edin

I ignored and left the car got my clothes and stuff I needed till we decide for the next days, got my uni. stuff . I headed back down and he wasn’t there. I am scared of being left alone but when I'm mad that’s just not on my mind at that moment.

Dialing Dhari

Dhari : aloo

Me: wainik? *depressed voice *

Dhari: yayech (and he hung up)

I put my stuff on the last step of the stairs and sat waiting. I was too tired so I turned put my head on the third step from down and slept.

I was awakened by non-stop poking from Dhari of course. I turn to see him sitting right beside me. I sat straight fixed my elbows on my lap and held my head in both hands for seconds

Dhari: yallah (he rubs my back)

I got up rubbed my face, I turned to see my place empty, then I point and the stairs and back at the car

Dhari: wadait-hom

Me: mashkoor

Dhari: masawaina shay o ana asf

Me: (i kept quite not knowing what i should say)

He unlocked the car and I got in. It was a very silent ride and thank god it was a short one too! As soon as he moved the gear to P, I got out, took my stuff from the back seat and headed to the door waiting for him to hold it for me.

Dhari: 5al asheel 3anich shay

Me: no thankyou bas emsekly el bab

He held it open for me, when I walked past him I felt like someone lifted my bag off my shoulder. I turn and smile, then finally a smile plasters on his face and that made me very happy but don't ask why!

I continue walking to the elevator, I stood pressed the button waiting, then he came and stood behind me. * PING * and the elevator is here :D we got in, I start pointing my finger at all buttons then I gave up because I cant remember which floor.

Dhari: 2

Me: okayy ;p

The doors of the elevator open, I left first since he insisted then he came after me.

Dhari: mefta7y 6al3eeh

He points with his elbow while texting god knows who. It is awkward for me to slide my hands in a guy’s hands other than brother/uncle but if he says so then it's okay.

I unlocked the door and when I pushed it all I saw infront of me was bags from the grocery store.

Me: ok 3a6ny el jan6a awadeeha 3ashan nrateb il a’3ra’9 wensawy aklna

Dhari: ok yallah o badlay mara wa7da

Me: enshallah

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Dear Readers

2011-01-27T02:45:00.000-08:00

I went all excited yesterday and wrote you a post and I come home surprised
after editing it that our Dsl is expired...

When my brothers fix it I'll post it and I'll keep writing since I'm so
Excited :D

Yours Madliar

Heal Me 22

2011-01-23T23:57:00.000-08:00

OK.... There you go ;p it's the longest post i've ever posted i think (:

enjoy

I kept wandering around in the plane till I got back to my seat. Ohh shit he has the leg thingy pulled out how am I going to pass! I'm so not waking him up, he was up the whole time maskeen he didn't get enough sleep. I had an idea it was dangerous but I'm risking it. I placed my right hand on the arm thingy and tried to reach the other arm thingy with my other hand, I slowly moved my left foot to the other side so now I'm facing him, I push my self to the other side and luckily land on my seaat!

Me: 7ady mara7 a3eed-ha, next time dude imma wake u upp! *pheww *

Waay many 3arfa anam I hate it when I'm in a plane and I just can't sleep its so annoying. Sometimes I don't sleep the days before being on the plane just so that I'd be sleepy that day o now magdar anam!

I tried everyway you would think of! Mn kethr ma t7arakt I think I woke Dhari :S.

Dhari: shfeech ?

Me: mmm mafeeny shay

Dhari: waayed gam tet7arekayn shloon mafeech shay?

Me: no its just that mu 3arfa shloon anam ;/

Dhari: tsaneday o namay seeda

Me: ma3aref :|

Dhari: mmm 7e6ay rasich 3ala hatha mal el eed or the window, try

Me: ok

I tilted my head to the window side and slept peacefully. The next thing I knew I was awakened by Dhari.

Dhari: sarah yalah we9alna

Me: Hamad please ba3d shway ta3bana

Dhari: *sigh* bas b9ekon el plane 3alainah!

I got scared o gmt. I turned around to find no one around but me and him and some of the plane's waitresses that were cleaning it for the next passengers.

I stretched my arms a little to wipe away the laziness. I got up to find him standing holding my bag for me to reach and holding his ipad in the other hand.

I reached and placed my bag on my shoulders.

Me: thankyou

Dhari: that's my job...bas etha u don't mind 7e6ay my ipad da5el

Me: sure (I unzipped my bag)

He placed his ipad in my bag and zipped my bag.

I smiled.

He lead the way out of the plane and on to the baggage claim where he pulled the bags and didn't even let me help him! I'm so used to it because that is my job when I'm with my mom.I'd do everything and she sits and wait.

His car was waiting in the airport garage. He pushed the trolly to the car and arranged the bags properly in the trunk of his car.

Dhari: ay she8a now?

Me: mm kaifek madry

Dhari: so mine (he plastered a big smile across his face)

Me: okay (:

We got to their building which was 5 mins away from mine. He took the bags to the elevator one by one. I stepped out of the elevator first, since he insisted.

He had his keys in his mouth biting the ring.

Dhari: e5thay el key o fecheeh bl azrag(he mumbled while carrying my bag and his in each hand)

I held it and he losened his bite. I got kindof scared because I think I pulled the key and I hate when someone does it to me.

Dhari: lat5afen mara7 a3'9

Me: 7ady 5ft, 3'9ny o btshof shno bswy feeek

I replied while twisting the key to unlock the door.

Me: there....(I pushed the door open)...desh

Dhari: mashkoura

Me: anytime (brood mu 6abee3yy enshallah maygol 'mashkora' :'( )

I went in after him.

Dhari: wain tabin tnamin? Dary wela el 9ala?

Me: la 3ade enta nam eb darikk...I'm good with the 9ala

Dhari: akeed bas el frash arya7

Me: la ana a7b sofa's :D

Dhari: kaifech entay el 5asrana

Me: adry :p

I changed into something comfortable and sat on the couch watching tv. He suddenly came in. I decided not show that I realized he came in. I could sense after shave. He threw himself on the other couch then I decided to show that he grabbed my attention.

Me: so shra7 nsawy

Dhari: groceries awal ba3dain nshoflina movie o etha tabin shay mn el she8a nmr too

Me: mm ok

I wore jeggings a long sweater whereas long to me meant halfway through my thighs. I slipped on my flip flops and I took my purse.

Dhari: mtdafya o 7altich 7ala a5er shay na3aal! O mat7tajayn jan6etich 5aleha

Me: ma 3ndy ghaira el joty mu moree7, embala a7taj may9eer ga3din eb ur apartment o taby ta9rf 3alay ba3ad

Dhari: 3ala ra7tich ...laish shfeha etha 9raft 3alaich

Me: 3aib;D

Dhari: emshay emshay *smirk *

We headed to the groceries first, he pushed the trolley and I followed…

Dhari: mac&cheese?

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Heal Me 21

2010-12-18T05:37:00.000-08:00

Hey guys i took too ling to write this o enshallah u like it (:

im just too busy *sigh*

I walked through the doors of the gate and saw Dhari waiting by the boarding ticket check desk; I plugged my earphones of my ipod. Then tweeted that im leaving Kuwait…since I found it awkward walking over to him and looking straight into his eyes.

When I reached where he was I paused, let my bb slide into my pockets, and looked up.

Dhari: yallah?

Me: after you

Dhari: la la raja2an *sigh * ladies first

Me: ok

I walked handed my boarding ticket to the lady, and thanked her after she handed me the ticket then waited for Dhari. He smiled when he got his ticket and walked beside me through the nafa8 (I love using that word it reminds me of Europe’s road trips GOD I miss them) we9alna to the airplane entrance, he showed us through which aisle we should walk through. We booked in the business class seats, since there was no point in 2 more centimeters for the extended seat.

I had my huge Pink Victoria’s secret bag that kinda had everything I need and cant live without! Laptop, Ipods, simple makeup, wallet, hooded jacket for the plane and now I think u get how big my bag is.

Dhari: 3a6eneyaha a7e6ha foug (he stretched his hand to get my bag)

Me: LA2

He quickly slid his hands in his pockets and stood there scared, “kalaita begshora” u can say.

Dhari: asef? (he kinda asked)

Me: la bas ashya2y ily hnee abehom 3ndy a7bhom

Dhari: ah ashwa 3abaly glt shay ghala6

Me: lala no worries (:

We stood there for a second then he broke the silence.

Dhari: window seat?

Me: Pleaase

Dhari: go ahead (he gestured with his hand)

I sat and breathed in hard...memories started popping into my head, me and hamad when we were leaving Kuwait for America. It was so obvious that I was lost in my own world filling in the wonderful memories.

When the plane was about to take off I said “du3a2 el rkoob”, closed my eyes and looked through the window… suddenly I felt a poke on my left shoulder

I turned to face the “poker” and pushed my left curls to my right side.

Me: mmm?

Dhari: du3a2 el rkoob gelteeh ?

Me: yepp * sigh*

Dhari: shfeech

Me: la bas… nvm

Dhari: 3ala ra7tich

I turned back to look through the window.

Dhari: tadrin this is my favorite part

Me: ayho ?

Dhari: when I was a kid I enjoyed that part the most of the whole vacation

Me: eee haman ana a7eb window I just love the feeling being above o ashouf ashya2 tiny chethy (I tried to show the size by hands)

Dhari: eee b’9ab6

Me: u can peek in if you want

Dhari: I wasn’t waiting for your invitation I started peeking since the first minute we got into our seats

Me: I hate you (I turned back to my window :p )

Dhari: thankyou

Me: wow

Italics are stuff that I don't say bas I think of

I dunno how I woke up to see the window closed by that I mean that someone closed it, it was dark too all lights were off, and I had a quilt. I turned to see him and by him I mean Dhary ipadding.

Me: mmmm that was what I left behind at the apartment ;/

Dhari: ohh gmtay ? (he turned to face me) laaa 5esart kilaa mnich!

Me: aw im sorry …do u have taptap revenge downloaded?

Dhari: hmm chena mawjoda check (he handed it over to me)

I checked the slides of his ipad and found it ! yaaay

Me: legaitah ! there (I gave it back)

Dhari: al3abha ya3ny ?

Me: ee warm up 3ashan ensawy match (I got excited a little)

Dhari: ooh so wath8a ena 7adich betma95ereeny! :O

Me: eeehh yala o try easy I suggest

Dhari: I have never chosen easy even if I just started playing the game I always think of easy as too easy for me

Me: 3eshtaw

Dhari: 3ayal shlooon 3ayaaal

He choose hard and taptap classic song.

After 5-10 minutes of showing him how “to get it right” we started to play 2 players.

Me:E9eer t7e6a hnee please ?

Dhari: e9eer (:

Me: o teraba3 chethy ( I showed)

Dhari: awal shay tabeeny al3ab o I practice then a7e6 el ipad hnee o now tabeen tga3deeny 3ala kaifech ! :p

Me: emmm eeeee

Dhari: bas elyoum

We actually II replayed the game 3 times just because his score was higher than mine. I’d click on that button and we’d go back to ipad menu.

Dhari: heeey bas 3aad 5ala9 entay ma9a5ara o ana a7san mnich admit it!....gamy zain may la3eb ghashashaa! :p

Me: a9lan chethy yel3ebonha (I took the ipad to my lap and started a new 1 player game)

An hour passed I turned to my left to see dhari sound asleep, shelt the quilt I had on my legs I got up to cover him and then wore my slippers. I walked to the aisle.

Dhari: wain betro7in? (he woke up aw 7aram I woke him up bas shloon mm maybe light sleeper? Mm bro7a mu nayem 6ool el flight)

Me: toilet o a6awl el 6reej shway ryooly betnamil

Dhari: ok (he twisted his neck to the other side and continued sleeping)

CUTE

The slipper was so embarrassing, the towel one you get in the airplane pack I wear it in planes because my feet don't fit in my shoes because of the stupid pressure thing.

I walked past the rest of the gang they were all asleep, faj2a there was this old man reading his newspaper o he had the light bulb fog rasa open instead of the ones on the side. Maybe he doesn’t know there’s a side lamp

I’m trying my best to show everyone that I’m ok now since its been a week now since Hamad’s death, I am not ok but it’s just that other people around me are treating me differently and I don't like it. So I keep showing everyone I am fine, even though lots think I’m not and are still trying to impress me and make me smile and to their surprise I AM smiling.

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Heal Me 20

2010-11-22T09:17:00.000-08:00

3eedkom mbarak ;/ too late? yeah i know

Im sorry ! I was really busy and thats what i came up with, i'll try writing another post soon (:

Tests Quizzes Homework Essays Midterms YOU NAME IT !

Enjoy (:

He came to where I was sitting, patted on back, and rubbed my back up and down. I kind of realized that he meant c’mon let’s go. I got up trying to drag my feet and trying to keep myself balanced. I felt like I just left my soul behind and going off without it. Seeing your own brother on that bed with white sheets over his body is not that easy. When I say sheets I don't mean when he’s a sleep and you actually now that he’s going to wake up soon… no what I mean is seeing him like this and knowing that he’s gone, he’s not just taking a nap! NO he is actually gone forever well till the Day of Judgment in our case.

Dhari was walking fast and now he’s about a meter away maybe, I could see it in his eyes that this isn’t his first time to see someone like this. He was trying as fast as he could to run away and he thought that I don't understand stuff like this but it hurt my heart to see him like this because in these past days he made a good impression on himself by being a fun person and messing around with me the other day in our living room.

After long thoughts we finally crossed the streets and got to the car that’s where my eyes started to water and tears started flowing down my cheeks like a river I needed something to lay against because at that moment I was falling apart, I laid my back against another car and slowly going down and down till I was now sitting on street pavement between two cars hugging my knees real tight and crying.

Memories started shooting through my mind, my first day in Kuwait, the night we watched movies, when we broke the glass in the kitchen the other day and lots more, who am I going to share all this with? Who’s going to make me laugh? Who will be the one that tickles me till I scream, “baas tara abooool” then let go? Who will do all this? Basically WHO’S GOING TO REPLACE THAT HUMAN BEING?

Suddenly I felt someone shaking me back to reality, and then I realized it was Dhari….

Dhari was inches away he shook my shoulders slowly with both hands, I didn’t react then he held my head with both his hands tilted it backwards and with his thumb he rubbed them away each thumb taking care of an eye. I looked into his eyes while trying to catch a breath. We blankly looked at each other. Suddenly my body shivers I was too cold the breeze was going through my tummy and back, Dhari felt my body shivered he then let go of my hand and pulled out the sleeves of his A&F jacket off and placed it on my shoulders and pulled the hood of the jacket to cover my hair and keep me warm.

He stood up pulled me up gently from my arms and lead me to the back seat of his car, he opened the door helped me in and got in after me… I sat in the middle and he was on my right he turned to face the right side of my head…

Dhari: sara 6al3eeeny sit chethy…

I sat as I was told by his help and moved my knees to face him…

Dhari: you know that Hamad mayaby eshofich like this from above right?

I nodded

Dhari: so? We are both going to pray for him ina allah yaghferla o yaskina fasee7 janaaatah o ethabta 3end el so2al ok sara? Hamad hatha ely yabeeh mnich la2ana hatha el shay el wa7eed ely negdar ensawy 3ashan nsa3dah 9a7?

I nodded I felt like a lost kid with an uncle or relative explaining the situation

Dhari: bacher bnrid lekuwait ma3a Hamad’s body, 7maid mara7 e7eb ena yendefen hnee everyone wants their homeland and el ahal lazm eshofon o lazm en9aly 3al mayet bl magbara…

Me: I don't want to go back

Dhari: Hamad will not like that o b3dain lazm etkoneen yam omch l2nha m7tajtch!

I looked at him blankly not knowing what to say because in my opinion he knew better and we both don't want to discuss this issue anymore.

Dhari: Fahad booked and talked to your professors and they said its fine with them, we’ll be back in 5 days

And all I did was nod just like that I didn’t know what to say or do.

We went to Dhari’s apartment he packed his stuff while I sat in his living room TV was turned on but I wasn’t watching. Instead inseda7t on the 8anafa and the next thing I knew Dhari was really close that I felt his warm breathe against my face and then he moved my long hair strands that hid my face with hands, he woke me up and lead me to the car.

We got down and he lead my to my room and sat me on the bed. He got the suitcase, after wondering around the apartment and opening every room we had. Then brought it and placed it on the floor by my feet and started showing me which clothes I wanted to take. I didn’t care about the clothes I was taking with me. Whenever he showed me something I would just nod.

I got up I went to the bathroom brought 7 from each of my underwear, I went back to my room to see Dhari staring at me with a smile forming in his eyes and when I was about to kneel down and find a right place for them he took them kissed my forehead and placed them in my suitcase.

I laid on my bed while he was organizing the clothes in their place.

The next day I was awakened by Dhari he said I should get ready for the airport and that the plane is departing in 3 hours, I was 3 am at that time. I wore my grey track pants and navy blue jacket with an I love NY white shirt, its was hung on my closet door ….in other words it was Dhari’s choice and not mine. I felt so embarrassed these days since Dhari was actually doing everything I should be doing for us both but I guessed that he has passed by some similar incident before this one and new how it felt.

We changed Dhari took the luggage to the car and came back up to get me, he prepared water and some junk for the way and tried convincing me in getting food from McDonald’s but instead I shook my head. He sighed and continued driving .

We met Fahad at the airport and some other guys too. Dhari and Fahad took turns in staying by my side if Fahad left Dhari would stay if Dhari left Fahad stayed. I felt so shy since it was my first time to be close to guys and ones that I never had as friends, I looked up at them as my brother’s best friends not less but maybe more and didn’t show that I adored or loved one. Minutes later I caught sight of Alanoud who came rushing towards me and gave me a tight hug she looked at me and knew that I wasn’t OK!

Alanoud: I’m sure your brother is taken care of in god’s good hands, I’m here (she cupped my face and held it in her hands)

I looked at her then senselessly tears streamed without noticing, and Alanoud’s image in my eyes started to blur

She gave me a side hug and we started walking over to a bench. We sat there for what seemed like hours then the guys all came over to us, they were all very respectful 3azoony then Fahad said we should get going. Dhari and some other guy checked our luggage in then they lead us all to the gates and into the plane.

Fahad pointed on the first two rows we booked in first class. Dhari came over to me but I didn’t look his way even though I knew he was coming to me.

Dhari: window seat? (he lead Alanoud and I)

He said something to Alanoud but I didn’t bother to focus and listen.

The plane took off all I did was look through the window and imagining where Hamad would go? Right above somewhere I cant see right?

Little did I know, I fell right asleep Alanoud would shake me to wake up and eat but I’d just pretend I was tired and asleep, after many trials I fell asleep again and woke up to see Fahad?

Fahad: 9ba7 el 5air…nemtay wayed

Me: ta3bana

Fahad: mayy? (he handed me a cup)

Me: no thanks shearbt gabl ma anam (big lie) bs excuse me I’m gonna go find a toilet

I got up walked to the toilet did my business brushed my teeth and went back to join Fahad. When I got back Alanoud was sitting where Fahad was sitting a while ago.

Alanoud: Heyy

Me: Hi

Alanoud: how was your sleep?

Me: oh I don't know it was fine I guess

When we landed in Kuwait airport Fahad and one of their friends left the airport from another exit, Dhari, Alanoud and I left from the normal exit. My eyes started searching for any familiar faces but unfortunately I couldn’t my eyes started to blur. I wiped my tears and looked again then I caught sight of Aziz and Noura. I started walking towards them, when I was really close I hugged Aziz tight and started to cry and there I couldn’t handle holding back my tears. He’s the only sibling I have left and he knows I’m closer to Hamad then I am to him. I, myself was surprised so I wont blame him for being surprised after receiving this hug. Then came my sister in-law who I loved and adored she hugged real tight and whispered “3atham allah ajrich 7abeebty”, I tried to search and look for more familiar faces but I couldn’t find any and my mom was nowhere to be seen.

Aziz thanked Dhari they arranged stuff and updated each other in a matter of minutes. The next thing I knew we were outside the airport waiting for the driver.

We headed back home the driver and Aziz in the passenger seat, Noura sat beside me with on hand on my shoulder. All I thought about was how is my mom going to accept the fact that her son past away and the last time she saw him was months ago.

It seemed like hours in the car even though our house wasn’t that far away from the airport, the body was sent to somewhere to be placed in a refrigerator to be buried tomorrow afternoon.

We finally got home I was too scared to face my mom. I stood back Aziz placed his hand behind my back and wanted to let me lead the way but he noticed how scared I was he said “Sara omy wa9elaha el 5abar.” I looked down took a step forward and I was welcomed with a hug and tears. My mom was crying her heart out, we then went and sat on the sofa. My aunties came, mort 3amy, and her kids basically relatives.

F&F, Faris and Feda, were all grown up. The nannies were carrying them. They looked at me having no idea why everybody was crying. I motioned the nannies and told them to bring both Faris and Feda to my lap . I hugged them and cried silently.

Baby Feda: mamaaa nouwaa (she cried for her mommy who came to pick her up)

Faris stayed for a long time in my lap, I noticed he didn’t know how to speak and didn’t talk yet, while Feda knew some words. I always hear people say that girls fe6eneeen and boy aren’t but im not sure yet though.

This whole week in Kuwait was depressing it should be I guess. I saw lots of unfamiliar faces. Days passed by so quickly that I woke up one morning and headed to the airport this time with everyone coming to say goodbye including the twins.

As me and the gang that came along were heading towards the departure’s entrance I took one last glance, and waved to my family. I kept going straight ahead then I heard …

….: salaaa baay

whaaaaaatt ! who just said that!

I turned so quickly and my eyes landed on Fares, everyone’s eyes were on him! I ran to him picked him up so quickly and hugged him real tight. He tried moving to see my face I loosened on him and saw that huge smile plastered on his face.

Me: I love you fares

Baby Fares: heheheh

I put him back down and while I was still down Feda ran and gave me a hug too, she went and held her mom’s hand and waved goodbye

Baby Feda: byee aaaatyyy (u guessed right aunty!)

Me: bye baby

I stood up, everyone said I should hurry so I walked faster trying to catch up with the gang. I was so shy since Alanoud just stayed in Kuwait for 3 days and headed back for her midterms. That makes me the only girl with a group of guys, they were nice my mom met them all. I think they’ll make good friends with my mom since she adores humorous guys like my bro.

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Heal Me 19

2010-10-10T09:00:00.000-07:00

Another one for my Lovelyy Readerss <3>

Dedication this to my Soul sister &Editor Darliam :* miss you babe

I just saw Dhari in the car. My eyes started questioning, where the hell is my brother? He rushed out of the car, head bandaged and I can see a bump on his shoulder. I stood in front of him shoved my I-pod earphones in my track pants pockets and left my hand freely by my side.

I took a few steps forward now I'm inches away. I managed to keep myself from him. I knew something was not right, something I don’t even want to know happened.

Me: what happened? (I managed the ask him the question)

I turned around. I didn’t want to see him like this. I knew Dhari was in pain. I guessed it was from all the bumps that were on his head and shoulder. A lot of question came into my mind “Wain okhoy?” and just before I took my first step forward to get into the building, he held my arm.

Dhari: la7'9aa

Me: wain 7amad? (I said in a shaky voice)

Dhari: ne6ray, 5alaiteeny at7acha?

He didn’t look like the normal Dhari … there was something different about him… it wasn’t just the bruises. There was something else he’s hiding. Something bigger.

Me: go ahead ....

Dhari: emshay foug

He walked behind me you can say he lead my way to the elevator. I leaned back on the wall of the elevator waiting for it to stop at our floor... The elevator door finally slid opened. We both walked to the nearest couch and he sat on it. I, on the other hand, sat on the mini table that was in front of dhari. He stretched his hands out and reached for my hands. He kept them between his.

He honestly confused me. He wanted to tell me something and I can see his mouth open but soon he closes it, not finding the right words to speak. He kept squeezing my hands. It made me more nervous.

I know he’s hiding something from me, and that's not good.

Me: dhaaary wain 7amaad? (I was about to cry)

Dhari: o55ooch …

Me: eshfeeeeh ?

Dhari: 3 a 6 a c h 3 o m r a

Me: mn 9ijy wain 7amad?

Dhari: ….

I felt like I was stabbed on my heart with a butler’s knife, that huge one with really sharp edges that cuts through my veins and arteries I could tell now that my eyes have turned into shades and pink and red, then soon you’d see those precious tears running down my cheek. He kept staring at me saying nothing … Words kept running through my head … is he serious! He can’t be … it must be one of his lame jokes. Guys always do that right? I started convincing my wits.

Me: Dharii please gooley wain 7amad?! He promised he’d be here by sunrise!

That’s when I couldn’t handle holding back my tears. I covered up my face and started to cry harder. He promised. His promises were never broken; promises were like pearls to him. This is not real…I’m dreaming

Dhari: ed3eeela sara

I kept sobbing I had no idea what to do or what to think … I can’t imagine my own brother is now dead … I wont hear his voice again, we wont argue or annoy each other like we used to.

I felt Dhari’s hand pull me closer to him. He stood up and pulled me so I could stand. He moved my hand away for my eyes and held them with one of his. My eyes were reddish he looked right through them as I saw my reflection in his own eyes. I felt Dhari’s pain. I knew he was feeling for than what I was feeling. He was his best friend.

Me: Dhari please … take me to him… I wanna see him (I managed to say between sobs)

Dhari: yalah (he sadly replied)

He walked me out of the apartment we got into the elevator then out the buzz door. Dhari took me to the passenger seat, opened the door, and I got in. He went over to his side looking down at his feet feeling down; I could sense it. He got in and drove to the hospital. My head was stuck to the window, while he had his right hand on the wheel and with the other he held his head and his elbow was stuck to the window in a way to keep his head still. It was a silent ride all I heard was his breathing, and a little bit of murmur, which I guessed was verses of the Holy Quran. About 20 minutes later, we got to the hospital parking lot. He parked then took a deep breath…

Dhari: yalah we9alna Sara

I turned his way and placed my left arm on the armrest in between the two of us. He placed his hands on mine squeezed it and got down, I was too down to even talk or think he came to my side opened the passenger’s door and helped me out. I tried to form a smile for his politeness but it couldn’t escape me. He placed his hand on my shoulder as we crossed the street to the main hospital door. He tried squeezing my shoulder but all I did was look down. The only working organ in my body was that organ moving my eyes, legs, and maybe my arms.

We got in. Dhari seemed to know our way. We took the stairs he took me into a room that had a huge window that showed who was inside but all I saw was a dead body covered till it’s rib cage I couldn’t see his head or neck I had to go in to see that because the wall was blocking my way. I got shivers all over my spine when I saw that dead body. It was the first time for me to see a dead. And this time its not any body it my own brother’s. I felt the world was closing down on me I couldn’t believe my eyes. I placed my left hand on the window while it slid on that window. I cried quietly imagining my life with out him…

Dhari: He needs your prayers right now tears won’t help …

he pulled me into a side hug and I moved my hands up and down his back trying to calm myself and him, though it didn’t do any good.

Dhari: (he kissed my forehead and said,) tdesheenla?

I nodded, he pulled my hand to the door pushed it open and lead me inside, he pushed a chair by the bed while I stood there hand on my mouth and tears streaming down my cheeks. I sat on the chair and started to cry watching him lying there without heartbeats or a rising chest that always proved to me that he was fine! I slid my arms under the sheets and held his hand…

Me: inta 5alaitny o re7t ya 7amad…3omry matekhayalt hal shay bas “8adar allah wa ma sha2a fa3al” hatha ely allah yabeeh mu beedna…shloon el7in bagool 7ag omy ink hadait-na? shloon bta5eth hal mawthoo3? Broo7ha wlhana 3alaik o wed-ha tshooofik laman akalimha blail…o ana mn wain blgaly o5o chethy methlik dayer bala 3alay e7ebny wa7eba inta wafayt o kafayt ya o5oy loo ghairek chan mahama hal ashya2… bas inta ghair 3an kl hal bashar inta galbik 9affy …ma3ana ,a 3esht ma3ak 6oul 3omry bas 3eraftlik eb ash-her(I read some of the verses I’m familiar with and sowar that I have memorized in those years I prayed for gods approval)

I kissed his forehead grabbed a tissue dried my tears covered Hamad’s head with the sheets and whispered…

Me: allah yer7umik eb ra7metaaa

I turned around and started walking out. Dhary was sitting on the benches head in his hands. When his eye landed on mine, he got up pushed the door open.

Then I walked out and sat on the benches tears running down my cheeks, while he went in for a few minutes, he came out head down and eyes turning red.

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Heal Me 18

2010-10-09T02:06:00.000-07:00

I am sorry wallah i was busy lots of projects, quizzes, tests and homeworks i didn't have time to even write a post but for this weekend i wasn't too pressured so i came up with this :) forgive me ):

Shfeeeeeh hamad why is his phone switched off! ambaaih shasawy i don’t even know dhari's number. I remember the first digits of his number, I was so stupid to not save it in my contact list. I hate keeping numbers I know I won’t us. I know wouldn’t call dhari so that’s why I didn’t add him to my contact list.

So I waited and waited, I got too tired I walked back to my room and jumped on the covers without going under.

The next thing I know I was awakened by non-stop pings and vibration was rushing through my brain I got scared then I realized that I fell asleep and my mobile was now under my hair by my ear. I sat up and took my phone and found...

3:27a.m.

Hamad b) :

PING!!!

Swaaaiiiirrr

Sara W. Al Flani ;;*

HAAAA ENTA MAAA METT !!!! :'(

Where were you?

I’m worried sick about you

Laish ur mobile is switched off !!!

I hate you!!

You scared me ):

Hamad b) :

Asf wallah, khala9 sha7n el telephone. Oo entay nasya et76eenli el sha7n fa we both use dhari’s :S

Sara W. Al Flani ;;*

Aha … It's ok ;*

El 7emdellah ashwa you’re fine

Come here asap i misss youuu <3>

Hamad b) :

Heyy! I’ll be back before sunrise, promise ;)

Get back to sleep sorry if I ruined a fairytale dream sis;*

Sara W. Al Flani ;;*

Don’t worry it was a useless dream anyway… i don't remember any of it

Hamad b) :

hahahaha :p yallah ashoofch b3dain

Sara W. Al Flani ;;*

HURRY! :***

Hamad b) :

queen's orders ma lady b)

Sara W. Al Flani ;;*

hehehehehe ;$

I got up wore my wool socks and drank water then want back to sleep this time under the covers

The sun shined through the window and into my eyes i sat up straight and held my head, i felt really dizzy!

Me: 7AMAAAAAAAAAAD !! U THERE ...7AMAAAAD.....BRO!! haw shfeeeeh hatha! maybe he's asleep!

I walked out of my room rubbing my eyes I did’t see any changes in the living room or any trash around or any of Hamad's handbags. i decided to go check his room, I went in ... :S the covers were as they were yesterday, tidy and neat.

I wonder where he went.

I went back to my room and changed into something that was acceptable to wear for outside, i settled on pink green tracksuit and peace long sleeve shirt.

I went down the stairs and out the main door. I sat in the bench by the driveway. I plugged in my earphones and played "Something Worth Living For"-Shayne Ward, it kept repeating through my ears again and again till Dhari's Car pulled through the driveway my expressions turned from ;( to :D.

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Heal Me 17

2010-08-12T07:09:00.000-07:00

Sorry ;(

6awalt adry im sorry AGAIN i was spending my time with my cousins bas 7asayt ma9a5t-ha so i posted! my laptop mu ra'9y it connects ma3a el mifi ely 3endena hnaak wella i was going to post ams :)

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Ge3adna nsoolif each on her own bed till we drifted to sleep.

Alanoud woke me up to change then Hamad came to take me back home the doctor came to check one last time il 7emdellah everything was fine.

Days passed life got a little boring studying and more studying. I’d go to starbucks before university every morning drink coffee then I’d head for my first class and that’s all I did. The guys would come hang out at our place every once in a while… it was the last day of university before Christmas break Hamad and his friends were leaving today To god knows where!

Me: HAMAD! Tara bada3t! its 9:30 o betro7on 11 u still didn’t pack! Didn’t shower o …

Hamad: ENZAIN BAS! yeebly jan6aa ba76 el a’3ra’9 hathayl (he mumbled talking to the pillow yes wayha bl pillow o gam yet7acha instead of pointing 3al floor where his stuff were he pointed at the other side)

Me: enzain entt goum deshh shower!

Hamad: okkk …kany gmt

Re7t yebtla el hand bag while he was showering I packed his stuff because he doesn’t know how to pack 3adl bas e7athef bl bag! Mako shy esma folding! I folded each shirt placed them on one side of the bag and the shorts on the other and put his other stuff in between

Hamad’s phone rang I peeked through the screen Incoming Call Bu Dhaarwa!

Me: shit shit! He’s here o Hamad still showering!

Hamad: SAAARAA ANSWER!!

Me: ;S okaaayy

I picked up

Me: aloo

Dhari: saraa

Me: yupp

Dhari: bu 7maiida 5ala9?

Me: taby e9ij tawa ga3ed o dash el 7maam

Dhari: waihhh enzain ana ag3ad bara an6er ya3ny?

Me: laish u wain?

I walked over to the door of the apartment and now I hear his voice on the other side of the door.

Me: heheheheh ok (I hung up as soon as I saw him)

........

Me: heey you! (we greeted each other with fists gangsters way? get it ;p ?)

Dhari: heeyy

Me: 7ayak eg3ad ana bakl tawny ga3da ;p

Dhari: 8a9baan 3alaich bag3ad ;p

Me: laaaa 3ayal ogaf! (t5a9artlaa o wegaft jedama)

Dhari: mu bkaifech ;p

Me: ba3aad (I took a cushion from the closest sofa and threw it on his head)

Dhari: ta3alaayy yaal kalba

He chased me around the counter then around the sofa’s wela mashoof ela he jumps fog el long sofa o 9adny mn ba6ny, he turned me around so now I’m facing him and smiling

The way he held me brought sparks all over my spine. I tried to figure out what was that feeling. It was a feeling I never felt before. I hesitated to look at his eyes coz I didn’t know what might happen to me…

Dhari: sheftay shlon a9eedich bsohoola yaa 5re6yy ;p

Me: (I started punching him till he let go… trying to push those feelings I feeling away) haa ! HAMAAAD yalaah rfeejik yananyy

Dhari: ayaal shagool!

Hamad: kannny yaaay bas ta3alay take my toothbrush

Me: waay enta ma 3endik shay a7e6 feh ur toothbrush o shaving stuff…bayeeblik girlyy 3anono bag 7ag hal ashya2!

Dhari: enzain saway elyy tsaweena 5an5aali9!!!

I went to my room to get my makeup bags to put his stuff ;p I got him my green one which has tiny doggies printed on it 7adyy bafashla!

I went bag to his room put everything inside and carried the bag to the 9ala lay’3erkom tara hathy handbag wela ana wainny o wain asheel jann6aat sefaar :O ;;p

Hamad: 8awwwyyy 8aaawyy !! tsheel jan6a ;p

Me: e7meed rabik zain mny shaylat’ha mn hnaak

Hamad: 8a9baan 3alaiich I carry ur shopping bags mn el store laih el caar !!!

Me: mmm…bas that’s ur job … Sara’s 7amally :p

Hamad: rouu7aaaay zain ;p ela entay el 7amaltyy

Dhari: yalla goum 5anroo7 malna 5lg t’9alim el denya o e7na ma we9alna!

Hamad: yallah yallaaah

They went no goodbye wallah shy well I kind of kicked them out of the apartment.

Waaaayyy el7een shbasawy broo7yy! Way wallah 7amoood esawy jaaw madry I call all my friends to come sleep over wela enroo7 movie ok nroo7 movie then what? IFFFF waaaiiyyy shasawy el7eeen !

Those days were the borest of my stay here okay we laugh and do stuff funny moments and then what? mako shay ya3ny shwaya funny moments then ered e9eer mala8a mako fayda. 5alayt alanoud she sleeps over two days hnee o ana two days 3endaha then she came over for 2 days we had a bunch of movies we’d watch one after the other eat junk food fight over candy xD

Alanoud: we didn’t buy lots of candy all I see is chips! :\

Me: entay kila mnich

Alanoud: oh found one (she took the pizza ely 9ayer 3ala 7aalaw mn el chees)

Me: heeeeeeyyy hathaa maly ;p (I snatched it mn eedha and started eating)

Alanoud: I want a slice :(

Me: no just for soso :D

Alanoud: self-centered freak! :p

Me: :O im gonna kill you bas wait till I finish my teeny tiny pizza!

And that’s all we did basically…

Me: al3anoood! He’ll be back

Alanoud: which he ? (wiggling her eyebrows)

Me: :O mmm my bro ?

Alanoud: u sure not dhari ?;*

Me: heeeyy (I jumped and sat on her) what did u just say?

Alanoud: just admit it I know your in love with him !! and he’s too !!! (i got up )

Me: * sigh* is it that obvious *pfff *

Alanoud: heheh well kind of

Me: la bas 9ij I want them both :)

Alanoud: hahahha ok

Alanoud was just going to sleepover for today then she’s go back to her apartment tomorrow morning since they’ll be back.

We woke up really early in comparison to the past days alanoud left and I was all alone waiting for hamad to get back home, I went to check my phone I had a sms text from Hamad. It was now 9 : 30 am.

Sms from Hamad (2 hours ago)

Take care, we’re on our way (:

I decided to vacuum the living room and our rooms well I had nothing better to do!

About an hour later I decided to call and see if they were anywhere near home.

Dialing My Man ;*

The mobile has been switched off!

Me: ?? huh ! 7amaad never switches his phone off except on planes well that’s something totally different ……..

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